inkubus666
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I am the fear in the eyes of Christ. I was the one who made him doubt as he hung on Galgotha... ME!
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Post by inkubus666 on Oct 18, 2006 6:41:13 GMT -6
You know, I'm not sure I can buy into mythos or anything I can't truely interact with.......but..... I have always been far too in tune with the world around me. Far too aware of just how dark a place this life really is behind the imagined beauty. But more disturbing for me was all the things I see and feel. In dreams, while awake.....flashes of things that have passed.....things that have yet to pass......things I have seen come to pass exactly as I was shown. So, I have no idea. But I keep an open mind and seek those who have had similar experiences. And those whom I get a certain feeling about. I have never dabbled in the occult. Never practiced any forms of witchcraft, majick or sorcery. And yet.....when I truely wish to manifest something and hold it in the back of my thoughts, in my heart as a desire.......it does come to pass. As much BS as that sounds, people can and have manifested the divine energies. Because to face facts, we are energy. All of this is energy. We are part of the matter stream and as conscious entities, can influence the course and shape of things to come. Manifest Destiny. Fate. The Call. Whatever we choose to believe, there is most definately something else here with us in life. And throughout time, we have always tried to paint a face onto it. To understand it. Where we have failed is in placing a kind face upon it. It is neither kind, nor noble. It is the void. the chaos of nature. All the dark little things we fight against inside ourselves. Me? I'm personally at a point where I know my capabilities. And I have always challenged the rules and laws governing us all. So to this end, I simply leave it at this : If the divine is listening, if it has the will to interact on a material level, I call upon it, as it has enveloped me the whole journey within the shroud of my own thoughts. the Cthulhu Mythos is more of a workable template than a set in stone religious framework. i myself, use the Mythos as an integral facade for the many horrible shapes beyond this world.
some Cultists prefer a more Satanic paradigm or one which they have created.
VSThe path to magik is a personal walk. I have studied over 15 different religions/Cults/sects/Denominations, took what I needed and moved on. The COS taught me that I was born to this world alone and I will die alone. And I am free to "do as [glow=red,2,300] I [/glow] wilt" At this moment what’s in my skull is god. So in order to experience true magic you must first forget the world and work on your self! You are the Rod of power. Through you, all things are possible. Believe and it will happen. Even if it takes some creativity.
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Chaoticum
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"Chaoticum aeternum"
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Post by Chaoticum on Oct 18, 2006 13:10:22 GMT -6
Greetings all, my name is Dann Kriss, and yes, I have heard the Call. No, I am not mocking anyone, nor am I making up stories to somehow "fit in", nor am I a headcase (well, maybe by some standards). I am a servant of the great Cthulhu, and stand proudly by my beliefs. Although, one must use the term "servant" lightly when dealing with such entities, for the very second one does not remain in control, you may as well kiss your ass goodbye (at least, metaphorically speaking).
First, let me begin by addressing the nay-sayers and bored twelve-year-olds with a semi-working intelligence and yet nothing productive to use it for: I believe that Cthulhu exists in the fashion that all "gods" exist. "Gods" are nothing more than a manner in which to view the macrocosm, or energy flows therein. Jesus, Vishnu, Allah, YHVH, Pan, Mithra, all of these are nothing more than masks we put on the energy flows of the universe. These are the ways in which we can relate to those things around us we do not understand or cannot perceive in the current state most people are left in after their formative years during which they are innundated with some fashion of "the real way" things work. Does this mean that the gods do not really exist? No, of course not. In fact, it makes them more real, since they are nothing more than perceptions, lenses if you will, with which to interact with the cosmos. The power of belief is a strong and overwhelming thing. It can take masks or archetypes, and literally, through years of strong belief by so many people, form those energy pathways into the forms we perceive them in, just as an image can be burned permanently into a monitor if there are no screensavers, even though it is just a stream of energy particles. Through my studies, I have found a number of "masks" that work for me, but as the universe is a place of constant chaos and evolution, Cthulhu makes the most sense to me as being closest to what I perceive the macrocosm's true nature. The cosmos no more care for us than a tree cares for a squirrel living within it. A symbiotic relationship may form, but not through any emotional ties. It is no more than mutual survival that nature has placed into balance. Therefore, I can believe whatever the hell I want, and still be right.
As far as the Calling, I began seeing a particular vision when I was twelve. I have seen visions all my life, both of things to come, and things that have been, as well as things that "should not" be there. It should also be noted that most of my dreams are haunting landscapes of terror, and that somehow I am more comfortable that way, at this point, than if I were to have a "pleasant" dream. But when I was twelve, I saw myself in a field, with an open sky shrouded in black clouds. There was a tree off in the distance, but I do not believe it was of importance. There were two others there with me; a man and a woman. I do not recognize either one of them. We were standing in a triangle formation, all facing I believe to the west, staring at the black clouds, as lightning constantly rends the sky. There is a large obelisk in the center of us, about four to five feet high, rough-hewn and grey or black, very weathered. On three of it's sides are symbols carved into the rock. Blood begins pouring from the symbols, and they begin to glow. The three of us continue to look towards the sky, undeterred by the glowing beacons before us. A pair of eyes appear in the clouds, and we stand watching on, waiting... I'm not sure for what.
I have seen that vision many times, both in my waking hours, and in my nighttime excursions beyond the wall of sleep. When I began reading Lovecraft, it all felt so familiar, so real, so visceral. I can't explain why, but it all felt so vivid, even though I know the stories are just that. I began studing the occult a few years later when the Old Ways found me. I was allowed to join a coven, studied very hard, and when I was 18, I even married the Tradition's founder, my teacher, a Master Priestess who had been practicing since the late sixties. My true studies began in earnest then, past the realms of Paganism you find on the bookshelves. As I studied, I grew. When I was 19, I formed my own coven, based on the teachings I had trained in during my earlier years. Wiccan/old Pagan blend of material with good energy work. I opened an occult store the next year, by the name of Ancient Hollow. My wife and I ran it for four long years, also founding a local Pagan organization devoted to helping people in need, spreading a better light on Paganism, and educating people about what Pagans truly are. Through all my studies, I found many pantheons that I enjoyed working with, but the two entities my soul in inexplicably bound to are Death and the mighty Cthulhu. Death is a kind being, loving and tender, and fills the lighter, compassionate half of me. It evokes my mercy for others, and guides me to having better understanding. The Mythos, however, fulfills a much different part of me. A much older part. In 2004, after much heartache, I turned my coven over to others, closed my shop, and began a different length of my journey. In that same year, I made my first album under the name Chaoticum. The album was a test, an experiment if you will, to see what could be done with sonic powers, vibrational work, and brainwave manipulation. (If you should find a copy online to download, which there are, try listening to it in a dark room, and I guarantee you will see visions) After finding a new mate who shared my views and ideas, and after a surprising response online, we began work on our second album in 2005. We are now finishing our seventh full-length album. All our music is designed to awaken different emotions, to bring order to chaos, or chaos to order, or to honour those things we feel strongly about. No, this is not a promo, and I don't give a shit if you go check out our music. Don't miss the point. I'm simply sharing my story.
That is my story, I have shared what was asked, and then some. I simply wish that for those out there who feel the same but are afraid to speak up to see that there are those out there like myself willing to put up with mindless ridicule and pointless banter to tell what we have seen or experienced. Do not let fear overtake you, and do no concern yourself with what others will say or think. Simply speak your truth, and let the world be damned.
Dark Blessings to all...
The Reverend - Dann Kriss :.
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Post by I AM the Way on Oct 18, 2006 13:40:42 GMT -6
welcome to the forum, Dann Kriss! well said, along with the rest of your post. it seems like we see things very similarly. i hope you enjoy what we have to offer...
Venger Satanis Cult of Cthulhu High Priestwww.CultofCthulhu.net
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inkubus666
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I am the fear in the eyes of Christ. I was the one who made him doubt as he hung on Galgotha... ME!
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Post by inkubus666 on Oct 18, 2006 14:32:56 GMT -6
[glow=red,2,300][/glow] Dark Blessings to all... The Reverend - Dann Kriss :. First from my part [glow=red,2,300]Welcome dann[/glow], happy you’re with us. You left allot to comment on... and I mean allot! Can you draw the 3 symbols on the obelisk? Any that u might remember, or how about, what origin were they from? I suffer from random obe and violent dreams. So I’ve had no choice but to learn the meaning of dreams... I’m still a novice but just for the hell of it why don’t u quote your comment and post it somwere on this forum with the pictures? I mean if it’s not too much trouble. I’d just like to see them.
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Chaoticum
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"Chaoticum aeternum"
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Post by Chaoticum on Oct 18, 2006 18:52:58 GMT -6
Sadly, I do not recall what the symbols appeared to be. I may never have actually *seen* them so much as known they were there, if you know what I mean. Kinda hard to put into words, but that's the best way I can explain them. I believe one of them may have been similar to the sigil from the cover of the Avon Press Necronomicon.
By the way, just in case anyone was interested, that book, the "Simon" Necronomicon was written by the late great occultist Herman Slater of Magickal Childe publishing. Very well trained in the arts of ceremonial magick, and very well acquainted with practical force of will sorcery as well. Actually, there was a second book written by him, awaiting publishing at the time of his death called "Gateways of the Necronomicon", but after he died, the manuscript was stolen, and there were no other copies. Just a little trivia there for all interested in such things.
Dark Blessings, The Reverend - Dann Kriss :.
By the way, I really do enjoy this board, and am glad I was introduced to it. It is a pleasure to meet you all. I look forward to exploring this site and its many posts and resources.
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inkubus666
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I am the fear in the eyes of Christ. I was the one who made him doubt as he hung on Galgotha... ME!
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Post by inkubus666 on Oct 19, 2006 8:19:14 GMT -6
Sadly, I do not recall what the symbols appeared to be. I may never have actually *seen* them so much as known they were there, if you know what I mean. Kinda hard to put into words, but that's the best way I can explain them. I believe one of them may have been similar to the sigil from the cover of the Avon Press Necronomicon. By the way, just in case anyone was interested, that book, the "Simon" Necronomicon was written by the late great occultist Herman Slater of Magickal Childe publishing. Very well trained in the arts of ceremonial magick, and very well acquainted with practical force of will sorcery as well. Actually, there was a second book written by him, awaiting publishing at the time of his death called "Gateways of the Necronomicon", but after he died, the manuscript was stolen, and there were no other copies. Just a little trivia there for all interested in such things. Dark Blessings, The Reverend - Dann Kriss :. By the way, I really do enjoy this board, and am glad I was introduced to it. It is a pleasure to meet you all. I look forward to exploring this site and its many posts and resources. ;D dreams and vissions can be blured at times... i found that listening to water being stured or driped into a contaner helps the dream awarness. it causes you to wake up in your dream. Ive had dreams were the same thing would happen every time i'd have the dream. Just the sound surpasses the thinking prosses, and gives u a numb feeling after a wile. once you sleep, you will realize that u have awakened in your dreams. this isn't realy a subject for this thread. so i'll end it here. Sory Darrick... if u expirimented with sounds. you know what im talking about. HAIL!
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davidltamarin
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See also: www.myspace.com/ragethemovie
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Post by davidltamarin on Oct 26, 2006 14:53:42 GMT -6
for the person who said aliens wouldn't visit this pathetic rock or whatever, maybe that is why they visit- we are nothing to them so they experiment on us like we experiment on animals.
if you don't believe there is other life in the universe fine but there's no reason to imply people who do believe there is other life out there are idiots.
when you get anally probed you will believe.
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Post by LORD SHADOWMAN DRACONIS on Oct 29, 2006 23:38:26 GMT -6
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GREETINGS AND SALUTATIONS TO ALL....
AH YES....THE NECRONOMICON. I CAN SAY JUST LIKE MANY OTHERS THAT IVE HAD MY EXPERIENCES......I WAS ALWAYS DRAWN TO NECROMANCY....FROM THE BEGINING OF MY EXISTANCE....TO NOW....I AM WHAT YOU WOULD CALL A BLACK HOLE...IN MY DESIRE TO GAIN KNOWLEDGE OF THE DARK ASPECTS OF MAGICK. I AM AND ALWAYS WILL BE INTERESTED IN LEARNING NEW THINGS...AND EVEN IN THE OLD SO I MAY BRUSH UP ON MY STUDYS.....I AM BOUND TO THE DARK ASPECTS OF MAGICK...AND WILL NEVER STOP SEARCHING FOR MORE KNOWLEDGE....
-LORD SHADOWMAN DRACONIS
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Post by psychothustra on Nov 1, 2006 20:06:46 GMT -6
I don't know that i am called. Things in my life seems to happen in a special order which i don't know. But there are always situations i just see clear and can resume the past and realise all those steps I'd taken before. They just seemed to prepare me for the actual situation i'm in. Meanwhile as the years passed by i just learned to trust. That doesn't meant that I'm a victim to the things happening around. I'm walking with open eyes, trying to read the signs around me. I just know that everything which is happening just has it's reason. I may not understand the reason for it's moment, but i learned to know that there will be a time i understand. And so i believe in forces. You can give em the name you want to i guess. All in all i believe are we all - so the believers - talking about the same. We have just other intepretations in that what we are talking about. So how do i know that I'm called?? Because i am here. Someone was leaded to my page and gaves me an offer and i did a lil research and followed because i saw a few similiar things to my own. I think those who are believing are lead by forces. It is just a question: Are you open enough top trust and follow your way you have to go? PS: As i'm german please forgive my bad english by times ... I'm still learning each day.
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Post by I AM the Way on Nov 2, 2006 12:05:54 GMT -6
hey psychothustra, your English is really good. thanks for joining (feel free to post something on the Introduction board too).
are you a fan of Nietzsche? psychothustra sounds a lot like Zarathustra to me...
sometimes when i try seeing myself or my life from the outside... i think how crazy it all is; how small and pedestrian. at the same time, how grand and limitless. all i know is that i'm going after what i want. that's it.
at worst this Cthulhu Mythos religion is an enjoyable fantasy; at best it's the shimmering green key to our unexplored potential.
sometimes i like to think that i'm the one doing the Calling, and myabe i am... through the Old Ones.
Venger Satanis Cult of Cthulhu High Priestwww.CultofCthulhu.net
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Post by psychothustra on Nov 3, 2006 10:08:19 GMT -6
Greetings ..., i would say yes. - I am a Nietzsche-Fan in a way. Unless that i haven't read all his works till yet i had read Zarathustra servereal times and a lot about Nietzsche himself as a person. That's how it came that i called myself by time "Psychothustra". It's a mix because of my RL nickname i'm wearing since i was 16 or somehing and Zarathustra. Sometimes i just feel like Zarathustra himself. The "Observer", someone who's there, always reading between the lines and because of that unable to live a "normal" life again. So I'm sitting on my "hill" watching the world going down. So it seems.
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Post by thehereticsaint13 on Nov 3, 2006 20:05:31 GMT -6
Have I been called? Good question...invited, yes, called, still unknown. I know not of Cthulu but I do know MUCH of The Cold *L* Let's see what response that gets, aye?
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Post by jameson on Nov 4, 2006 4:42:47 GMT -6
yes, there is that... but i am also wondering about the Cthulhu Mythos as religious experience. if you feel a strong connection to the Great Old Ones, then try to examine and explain these feelings.
VS Reading the stories simply held an unconscious appeal.The meditation on these horrors bought with it a dissociating experience which I enjoyed.Never with any other paradigm did it happen.The experiences are involuntary beneath the idea of conscious will.I can not say I ever dreamed of the slumbering Cthulhu beneath the depts but I feel a pull by these forms.
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Post by libertina on Nov 24, 2006 8:52:26 GMT -6
I didn't feel I could answer this before, as I was not sure. But, yes I can say now that I have been called. And at the same time, that it was I who did the calling, in response to the inner prompt to do so. So, for me, I'd come down on the side of it being a willed transition... I would also very much rank it as equal to or surpassing any other religious expereince. Well, most, anyway. Not sure I can agree with having to go through this cult of yours, though, sorry.. *grins* I am/found my own gateway
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Post by I AM the Way on Nov 24, 2006 9:35:48 GMT -6
yes, it is the same for many of us, myself included. the Cult of Cthulhu is a highly sophisticated tool, nothing more. we strive for Self-Empowerment, Awakening, and bringing the Old Ones back to our world. in the end, each Cultist must create his own paradigm/gateway.
thanks for posting, Libertina.
Venger Satanis Cult of Cthulhu High Priestwww.CultofCthulhu.net
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Post by libertina on Nov 25, 2006 18:19:23 GMT -6
Thanx for the reply Well, the spirit of those statements I can certainly agree with. Hmm... consider me perhaps a "cult sympathiser" or some such
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Post by Latheeb on Dec 4, 2006 22:11:47 GMT -6
I have been called, i can feel our LORD reaching out to me. I cannot think of anything but his service. What might i do to serve him is what i hear, i am beginning to hear him speak. I heard him directing me to this site so i came. I came and have been given the answer to my prayer. For truly our LORD is alive.
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Post by I AM the Way on Dec 5, 2006 11:49:25 GMT -6
hey Cthulhuhoyt,
thanks for joining and the fanatical post. i like to see that.
as you probably know, hearing the Call is a phenomenal experience... but it's just the first step. focusing these religious feelings is necessary. putting oneself on the path.
read this and see if the Cult of Cthulhu is right for you:
cultofcthulhu.net/I-am-the-way-cthulhu1a.htm
Venger Satanis Cult of Cthulhu High Priestwww.CultofCthulhu.net
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Post by alastor on Dec 20, 2006 13:40:11 GMT -6
the modern Occultist authority Konstantinos said in his book Nocturnicon that people will mental afflictions have one foot set in the other world. People like me, for instance. We tend to be able to divorce ourselves from the mundane world better and easier...where we find ourselves riding around within range of the mighty Cthulu and other Ancient beings. Our Drowned Lord speaks to us on many mystical channels. But it takes discipline and practice to hear his call and understand his bidding.
As a Satanist and fellow Cultist of Cthulu..I can say that I am drawn to our Lord's call by the dark, viscous, and enormous thoughts he whispers into my brain...
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Post by setnacht on Dec 22, 2006 15:25:39 GMT -6
Cthulhuhoyt wrote:
Nice to see that you've given up you free will entirely!! You truly belong to the Left Hand Path!!
Setnacht
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Post by stretloth on Dec 23, 2006 8:15:37 GMT -6
Its not like that setnacht, Their will is My will So we have given up nothing except the lie
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Post by blaskhyrk on Dec 23, 2006 8:32:44 GMT -6
I am here , because i want to be in this place. Maybe i can get some information about The Call Of Cthulhu, because i am green here
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Post by jameson on Jan 2, 2007 15:52:20 GMT -6
Cthulhuhoyt wrote: Nice to see that you've given up you free will entirely!! You truly belong to the Left Hand Path!! Setnacht More like right hand path in a mask.I never desire to serve anything other than myself.If Cthulhu calls then with him I shall walk,but NEVER as an underling or servant,such is the purpose of bettering myself through the foruth way philosophy.The only Adonai be myself and non other-Anything else is christianity incarnate.Be thyne own master. Remember he with no master Belial
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Post by librabys on Aug 16, 2007 15:36:25 GMT -6
Actually im very feel called by the old ones. As a child i done magic by instinct. I know i was a mage before my birth. When i was a teen a friend spoke me about lovecraft. The prophet s novels awoke in me subtiles memories, and a deep feeling of mystery. i studied magic for years, and practiced it. my way encounter Kaos magick and other unorthodox and ecclectic ways. Last summer i had a deep mystical experience on the shore, Cthulhu s tentacles take over my soul and make me dive and swim in the energystream... (of course i think water is a strong symbol for the cosmic sea of energy...) this winter i seriously think about working with the mythos, and this spring i known about groups of serious magickians using it, like cult of Cthulhu and Esoteric order of Dagon. I feel i should Open a temple here in Quebec.
Of course I m glad to join your Cult today, fraters and sorors... I wish our exchanges will be profitable for both sides.
Please accept my gratitude for being what you are.
IA! IA! CTHULHU F TA GN!
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Post by I AM the Way on Aug 16, 2007 16:54:13 GMT -6
thanks for the post, Librabys. i'm sure our exchanges will be fruitful. this is the place for serious Lovecraftian magicians.
also, there are a couple official Cultists, as well as, some CoC supporters in Canada, specifically Quebec. i'm hoping that a Grotto will form around that area by 2008. tell your friends/acquaintances about us. and feel free to take a look at the website (link below) for more information about our religion.
Venger As'Nas Satanis Cult of Cthulhu High Priest
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Post by luxcthonis on Aug 20, 2007 13:27:52 GMT -6
My calling began, incidentally, not with Lovecraft, but through the Simon Necronomicon. In 1996 I started a metal band, and the guy I got to be my guitarist (now doing gothic metal under the name "mindticora") was involved in witchcraft (turned out to be Wicca, I guess. I wouldn't know). Anyway, he bought the Necronomicon in my prescence, and like any good occultist, let me peruse it. Instantly, as I read the 'testimony of the mad arab' I could feel something. Such a feeling is impossible to put into human words. It was the Calling. No matter how much Alhazred tried to discourage veneration of the A:O, I was drawn to them in a quite unhealthy manner. In the following year I ended up reading Lovecraft's "The Silver Key" and "Through the Gate(s) of the Silver Key," respectively, and these stories really blew my mind. In a literal sense. I emerged from my bedroom, after reading them and re-reading them, in a state of pure awareness. I knew that I could then answer all of the tedious questions of existence, and at that moment I became a Cthonist. Though my path took me to many different paths, and in my mind I did not REMAIN a Cthonist in the proper sense, I see now that Lord Leviathan has indeed led me by the tentacle so to speak in order that He might show me the eldritch truth of all things, namely, that: all paths indeed lead to God; and God is VERY present in the affaires of humankind. As incoherent as all of this may sound, this has been my calling. It is an ongoing process, for I am still being called. He calls me to go here, and he calls me to go there. When He calls I answer, and whither He beckons, there I go. I know now that I have always been a Cthonist. I shall ever be a Cthonist. I thank the Gods for the Cult, and I view my High Priest as an extension of myself who is a bit older, a bit more experienced, and a bit more authorized to form such an institution in the name of the almighty A:O. We even kind of look a bit alike, lol! I say this because, last summer to be exact, I had a notion to form an institution based upon Cthonic insights. I was going to call it "The Cthonic Institute of Celestial Illumination" (CI/CI), but came to a standstill because I realized i had no formal occult training. What providence brought me to the doorstep of the Cult proper, as a thing not of this earth.... I am grateful for the cult, for its members, for our High Priest, and I am grateful to the Gods for calling me; for recognizing the inward potential of one so inhibited by human characteristics. In the highest sense of regard, I scream in horrible cacophinic ululation: IAO CTHONIS! IAO SETHENA! Hail Satan, Praise God. -M.
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Post by ladysatanica666 on Sept 9, 2007 17:15:12 GMT -6
well i know i do have a calling towards the religion of COC because of my purchases of Lovecrafts books, the Necronomicon, and Donald Tysons Necronomicon, and george hays necronomicon I also cannot wait for my COC Bible to come. Yes i have spent alot of money on my COC Library. But for me it is well worth it. So i say yes i do have a calling towards the Dark gods, the ancients, the old ones. And after reading my COC Bible that calling may very well be answered.
Lady Satanica, Theistic Satanist
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Post by sxt701 on Sept 10, 2007 17:06:15 GMT -6
nothing in life worth having is that easily gained
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Post by noladyke on Sept 24, 2007 14:51:45 GMT -6
I'm attrackted to the CoC,but it's more a question of curiosity instead of being called. Not the expected answer to the question, but an honest one, I hope you can appriciate that.
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Post by eratciv on Sept 25, 2007 10:01:19 GMT -6
I believe I have been called as to why I am not exactly sure. It probably has something to do with waking up every night screaming, speaking tongues in my sleep I could not know, having failed to end myself too many times, and of course the lack or any psychiatric problems to explain my delusions. However I have not walked the path as often as I should and I feel I do not truly no the path even when I do see it right before me.
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