Post by Perkele on Aug 28, 2015 10:43:48 GMT -6
The concept of the Innsmouth look has always fascinated me, even before reading any of H.P. Lovecraft's novels, I found the idea of people with these big, disturbing, bulgy eyes nightmarish - I remember seeing this one particular nightmare as a child frequently, this horrified fish-looking face popping up in my vision. Every time the face would come up, I would soon recognize the person making that face to me as being one of my close friends or one of my relatives - actually anybody from my list of weekly persons. After reading Shadow Over Innsmouth, these same nightmares came back to me after a pause of many years. Fortunately they seized quickly, and I haven't seen that particular nightmare for a long time, even though I have the memories of those horrifying nights, waking up sweaty and trembling, and the fear of looking my daily people in the eyes in the morning, just because of being too frightened of repeating the nightly horrors.
For the past year I've been experiencing some frightening (for me, at least) moments with random people I see walking downtown. I like to refer this as "the Innsmouth look", because that's exactly what it is, according to the vision of Lovecraft. The same nightmarish face I referred earlier, that face keeps popping up, even though I haven't seen that particular nightmare for years. The face appears on random people, just casual everyday fucks you see at the market daily - usually they are normal, but sometimes, like 1-4 times a month, you see this one creepy face that reminds you of all of your past nightmares. It really has started disturbing me, everyday I go to work, to the local market, or visit my relatives, I'm afraid of seeing this small tilt on their faces - it creeps me out and makes me lose my sleep.
For example, this one time, I was at the post office, waiting in a line to get a package from Ebay. There was this couple with a, let's say, 4-year-old kid with them. The couple was talking with the cashier for a long time, there was something wrong with their order or something like that. The kid was nervously looking around, for he was hand in hand with his mother so he couldn't wonder off freely in to the office while waiting. I payed attention to the kid's face, and for my disgust, I saw the Innsmouth look. Nothing else I saw in that kid's face. It was the clearest Innsmouth look I've ever seen, and we had this very short (which felt like an hour) staring competition - I couldn't get my eyes off from his face. I felt disturbed since these visions started like a couple of months ago, and every time I saw the face gave me the creeps. After a minute or so the couple finished talking to the cashier, they apparently didn't get their package for some reason - unfortunately I was listening to music instead of their talking, which I regret now. The couple turned away and left with their kid, and my face literally turned white when I saw them - the mother looked just like her son. The man looked very different, he had a black suit and a card on his chest, I couldn't read the card due to my shock but I figured he wasn't the father of the kid. I was irrationally frightened, but since these three people left the building straight away, I decided to get my own business done and ran to my home afterwards.
These kind of situations happen, like I said, 1-4 times a month, every time with different (I think) people. Everytime a random person, whom I afterwards never see again. I hope it's just my vivid imagination, just bringing the horrible dreams of the past live in my regular life. I'm afraid of seeing this particular face on my friends' or relatives' faces, because after that I think I could never look at their faces again. Just thought I'd like to share this with you, I believe you might have seen something similar at least on some level. Have you? I'd love to hear your stories, since every becalming words would be warmly appreciated. I haven't shared these thoughts with a psychologist or anything like that, probably they'd just order me some pills or try to put me away for my unconventional stories.
Thanks for reading, and please do leave a reply if you have anything to share or comment.
For the past year I've been experiencing some frightening (for me, at least) moments with random people I see walking downtown. I like to refer this as "the Innsmouth look", because that's exactly what it is, according to the vision of Lovecraft. The same nightmarish face I referred earlier, that face keeps popping up, even though I haven't seen that particular nightmare for years. The face appears on random people, just casual everyday fucks you see at the market daily - usually they are normal, but sometimes, like 1-4 times a month, you see this one creepy face that reminds you of all of your past nightmares. It really has started disturbing me, everyday I go to work, to the local market, or visit my relatives, I'm afraid of seeing this small tilt on their faces - it creeps me out and makes me lose my sleep.
For example, this one time, I was at the post office, waiting in a line to get a package from Ebay. There was this couple with a, let's say, 4-year-old kid with them. The couple was talking with the cashier for a long time, there was something wrong with their order or something like that. The kid was nervously looking around, for he was hand in hand with his mother so he couldn't wonder off freely in to the office while waiting. I payed attention to the kid's face, and for my disgust, I saw the Innsmouth look. Nothing else I saw in that kid's face. It was the clearest Innsmouth look I've ever seen, and we had this very short (which felt like an hour) staring competition - I couldn't get my eyes off from his face. I felt disturbed since these visions started like a couple of months ago, and every time I saw the face gave me the creeps. After a minute or so the couple finished talking to the cashier, they apparently didn't get their package for some reason - unfortunately I was listening to music instead of their talking, which I regret now. The couple turned away and left with their kid, and my face literally turned white when I saw them - the mother looked just like her son. The man looked very different, he had a black suit and a card on his chest, I couldn't read the card due to my shock but I figured he wasn't the father of the kid. I was irrationally frightened, but since these three people left the building straight away, I decided to get my own business done and ran to my home afterwards.
These kind of situations happen, like I said, 1-4 times a month, every time with different (I think) people. Everytime a random person, whom I afterwards never see again. I hope it's just my vivid imagination, just bringing the horrible dreams of the past live in my regular life. I'm afraid of seeing this particular face on my friends' or relatives' faces, because after that I think I could never look at their faces again. Just thought I'd like to share this with you, I believe you might have seen something similar at least on some level. Have you? I'd love to hear your stories, since every becalming words would be warmly appreciated. I haven't shared these thoughts with a psychologist or anything like that, probably they'd just order me some pills or try to put me away for my unconventional stories.
Thanks for reading, and please do leave a reply if you have anything to share or comment.