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Post by Padowan on Apr 10, 2015 11:41:22 GMT -6
Ever since I have begun embarking on this journey I have noted a heightened sense of suspicion of others about my new changes.
I have overheard such things said directed towards me as, "I don't know her anymore" and even accusations of lying or hiding something, all said in hushed whispers behind my back.
Truth is, I can't tell them of what I've learned. I'm too far along the path. They have to find the pitfalls and trip hazards themselves because they are too far behind me and they absolutely refuse to take off their lenses of prejudice and self-deception of knowing-it-all. I'm waiting for an 'intervention' to be thrown at me next. All I want is for them to leave me alone so I can move along my chosen Path, and regain my sense of direction.
Has anyone else experienced this?
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Post by shawnhartnell on Apr 10, 2015 19:54:57 GMT -6
Sometimes people intend for you to overhear things but that really says more about them than what they said about you, when you think about it. I can definitively say very, very few people have known me. They've known an idea of me in their own head. Most likely what you overheard meant "she no longer matches my idea of her" and if so, that kind of thing is sometimes followed by another zombie freaking out "Holy shit!!! It's alive!! Stumble away before the life disease spreads!!!" Shallow graves, man. Best tool ever. Anyway, remember that "Some people don't like you to change because the methods they used to control you no longer work."
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Post by Padowan on Apr 10, 2015 22:52:54 GMT -6
In this particular case I was not meant to hear.
But your words mean a great deal. They fix what hurts, or at least give me the insight to stop the pain.
I think I'm 'too real' now. I see too clearly. You are absolutely right. The people that never felt the need to control me, they have given me nothing but support. You just don't expect the worst from some people.
Thanks, for putting in a better perspective.
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Post by shawnhartnell on Apr 10, 2015 23:35:46 GMT -6
I think I'm 'too real' now. I see too clearly. You got it right there. You can also now understand what Crowley was up to when came up with this little ditty: To Know To Will To Dare To Keep Silent
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