Post by patience on Feb 27, 2012 19:30:03 GMT -6
Hello. My name is Patience.
I am new here. I am a beginner in learning about Sanatnism. I did like reading the Lovecraft stories, though I don't have one in particular I like more than another, and I have only read each one once. I was introduced to Lovecraft through my geeky friends who encouraged me to read all of them. I found an app with all the stories and read them on my ipod.
I am interested in learning about various religions and beliefs others hold to be true, but I am also trying to find a way to embrace my Pentecostal Christian up-bring and transcend it in a way that does not result in me getting lost in nerotic thoughts or neurotic behavior, and allows me to still feel close to my evangelical family members.
I have a strong tendency to check out of reality when stressed or feel unsure of things. This is my realization on review of my past behaviors. I also have a tendency to be unbalanced if I don't spend time writing in my journal, working out, being in nature and meditating. I have gone back and forth between three dominate aspects: a terrible victim mentality I allowed to own me for a long time, wanting to serve others... and a self-riotous attitude. I also have issues with guilt that I am trying to get a handle on so that I can be more confident and less co-depend. SO... I have a lot to work on and it has been improving over this last year due to a lot of things coming together for me.
I am currently taking a kabbalah course through the Bnei Baruch Education Center, which I enjoy immensely.
I won't be super active as I don't have this wealth of knowledge on Satanism or Lovecraft that so many on here have, but I will do a lot of reading while here. I found the Announcement: Forum Guidelines & Rules section very interesting. And there is a lot I don't understand, and so that is what intrigues me as well...and drives me to visit this site (besides the self improvements I know I need to make).
I like collaging, music, reading, blogging, and photography.
Out of all the closing statements in the list that were asked of us to use, I liked this:
Don't worry. Be happy. Make efforts.
I am new here. I am a beginner in learning about Sanatnism. I did like reading the Lovecraft stories, though I don't have one in particular I like more than another, and I have only read each one once. I was introduced to Lovecraft through my geeky friends who encouraged me to read all of them. I found an app with all the stories and read them on my ipod.
I am interested in learning about various religions and beliefs others hold to be true, but I am also trying to find a way to embrace my Pentecostal Christian up-bring and transcend it in a way that does not result in me getting lost in nerotic thoughts or neurotic behavior, and allows me to still feel close to my evangelical family members.
I have a strong tendency to check out of reality when stressed or feel unsure of things. This is my realization on review of my past behaviors. I also have a tendency to be unbalanced if I don't spend time writing in my journal, working out, being in nature and meditating. I have gone back and forth between three dominate aspects: a terrible victim mentality I allowed to own me for a long time, wanting to serve others... and a self-riotous attitude. I also have issues with guilt that I am trying to get a handle on so that I can be more confident and less co-depend. SO... I have a lot to work on and it has been improving over this last year due to a lot of things coming together for me.
I am currently taking a kabbalah course through the Bnei Baruch Education Center, which I enjoy immensely.
I won't be super active as I don't have this wealth of knowledge on Satanism or Lovecraft that so many on here have, but I will do a lot of reading while here. I found the Announcement: Forum Guidelines & Rules section very interesting. And there is a lot I don't understand, and so that is what intrigues me as well...and drives me to visit this site (besides the self improvements I know I need to make).
I like collaging, music, reading, blogging, and photography.
Out of all the closing statements in the list that were asked of us to use, I liked this:
Don't worry. Be happy. Make efforts.