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Post by iconoclasm on Dec 1, 2007 18:26:05 GMT -6
In my absence,I was greatly tested and had to use sheer will to get through.I believed in nothing ,no gods,no spirits,no anything after death,just me and my imbalances.Never for a second have I felt or tapped into the spirit.I want to do it again but don't know how to define it (ironic to be a brotha with no soul) or how to grab those experiences back.How did I do it?
How can I attune myself to the spirit?I have had moments of realizing the truth but they were brief and I ponder the nature of my existence,who and what I am all the time.But this thing called spirit...I must find it.Any advice?
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Post by Yahn'ikthorn on Dec 10, 2007 6:12:08 GMT -6
I can't provide an answer, but to stop looking from the wrong places (or stop looking at all for a moment) could be a start... its everywhere and nowhere depending on your viewpoint.
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Post by iconoclasm on Dec 10, 2007 12:24:16 GMT -6
I dont think i have one,although i am haunted by them.Perhaps I have finally realized I am already dead and that this is just a memory played out devoid of conscious control.
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Post by Yahn'ikthorn on Dec 10, 2007 14:19:04 GMT -6
The possibility that you just might be as you say makes me even more unable to give any answers. Maybe Cthulhu will come knocking your dream-doors and one day you'll wake up with the answers you seek. Or maybe he already did that a few too many times.
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Post by iconoclasm on Dec 10, 2007 15:31:01 GMT -6
Tell ya one thing I learned,I know on the Sodomy and the Incubi thread I complained of being touched and raped by spiritual entities to damn near having my limbs move on their own and hearing voices in my head foreign to me,but after it happened today,I enjoyed it.It reminded me that I am alive much more than the average imbecile. Its the closest to the spirit I ever get since my hunt for the HGA 2 and 1/2 years ago (which i unfortunately derailed in a bitter rage several month later). I suppose Ill start calling on random entities to keep me company,every little bit helps.
As for Cthulhu,yeah I met him in a dream and I was assaulted by a smaller simulacrum of Cthulhu (much taller than me though) and I woke up in pain.Of course that was one year ago and i was in a mild seasonal depression.Everything assaulted me back then.Good times my friend,good times.
Guess I can't go back the way I came ...skidoo!
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