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Post by I AM the Way on Jun 27, 2011 1:16:46 GMT -6
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Post by Deleted on Jun 27, 2011 3:27:49 GMT -6
Yes, I came to the same conclusion by myself : identity obscure the essence...
Interestingly, this is related to the essay I'm writing about freedom. In a word, you're not free unless your decisions are coming from the essence.
This is one of my aims during my holy month beginning just yesterday : Metanoia ! I want to break my annoying old identity, I just didn't know the word. I feel and think it's beginning well.
Don't worry, be happy, make efforts.
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Post by dudetyson on Jun 28, 2011 18:55:22 GMT -6
I'm at a slightly different place in my life. I've sort of drifted into a vague and stupid mush, not out of being inspired by my liquid inner essence, but just out of inertia. If anything, I would best manifest that inner essence by getting back to an old "shell"/identity that I used to have. If you've constructed a good shell, with each of its facets inspired by the inner essence, then it's not something that should be thrown away lightly.
But yeah -- before I built that good shell, my first few shells definitely deserved a serious ass-kicking.
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Post by sin on Jun 29, 2011 10:43:57 GMT -6
"If identity is the enemy, then how shall it be destroyed? An excellent question! By not doing what we ordinarily do. By going beyond our everyday mode of operating"
This is great advice. I recommend it myself. Many of our habits are automated, half the time we don't even know they are, until we've found ourselves doing the same damn thing, and ending up in the same damn place.
Going against the grain, up stream, is harder work, but you become something more because of it.
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Post by I AM the Way on Jun 29, 2011 16:24:53 GMT -6
This might be, at least from my perspective, the most difficult thing to do. Perhaps the last great feat a student needs to accomplish before he can call himself a Master of The Work: dissolving the old self so that a new self can be born. Nothing armchair about that!
If we cannot obliterate our identity in one fell swoop, then a partial dissolve done multiple times is required. If we are serious, then we must become jovial. If we are critical, then we must become complimentary. If we are overly-analytical, then we must become intuitive. How else can our changes become deep enough to make a difference?
One's Cult identity could be used to separate from one's former self. Any thoughts on this? Possible techniques or anecdotes worthy of sharing? By the way, I appreciate all the feedback received so far. Thank you.
Awake!
Venger As'Nas Satanis Ipsissimus Cult of Cthulhu
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Post by sin on Jun 29, 2011 20:11:08 GMT -6
I would agree. This Work is hard. Going against a current, any current, is forcing your will against a resistance. And you will resist. You have to find ways to push yourself, push against instinct, emotion, reactive thought. Ways, you are not comfortable with, and if you get too comfortable, you aren't working, you are settling. A lot of the stuff I do, with myself, with the people I work with, is in the realm of Fight Club, mental beat downs is where it starts.
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Post by dudetyson on Jun 30, 2011 14:28:28 GMT -6
I really need to rewatch Fight Club, not just because I'm sort of starting one but also because I've been working at a sewage plant and I seem to have somehow disconnected from my old class rage against doing the same stupid crap 40hrs/wk.
It's one thing to logically acknowledge that what exists now does not inevitably have to stay that way. It's *another thing entirely* to really apply that against being stuck in the workaday circle. Every second I spend at work, I slip further and further away from consciousness and passion. The drain on my body is serious, and it affects my personality. If anything, ironically it's the fact that I don't feel anything at all that is reawakening my anger.
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Post by sin on Aug 8, 2011 13:21:39 GMT -6
Why doesn't it shock me that The Ooze did a segment using Fight Club.
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Post by TwistedHumer on Sept 1, 2011 6:52:31 GMT -6
Metanoia, learning of this word was a real eye opener for me. Looking back on my life i realized i put myself threw a process of Metanoia many times. The day i moved out on my own, the day i took on satanism, the day i quit my lame ass job and took on a new one that i love doing. Simple choices like these can ultimately change your life in the most amazing of ways. To comment on past reply's, the movie fight club is a perfect example of Metanoia because the main character got himself caught in the mother of all ruts doing the same thing everyday and so he eventually found a way to completely change himself inside and out. then eventually ended up changing everything around him. What better example could you ask for?
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Post by sin on Sept 1, 2011 8:40:50 GMT -6
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Post by sin on Sept 1, 2011 8:47:48 GMT -6
"You, as most people understand the term, do not exist. Whatever you think you are is merely a fabrication, a revolving door of fragmentary selves cut off from the essence." -VS, Metanoia The essence of what you are, is dead but dreaming on the ocean floor, in the sunken city of R'lyeh. The daily grind of programming fabricates what you believe yourself to be, and you really do believe it. Even if, its false, superficial, an emanation of the original essence. cultofcthulhu.wall.fm/blogs/395"I don't care Who I am, but What I am."
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