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Post by ibiss on Sept 13, 2006 22:47:30 GMT -6
I dont know if this question belongs here or in philosophy but here goes.
I know what I enjoy and why perhaps I enjoy it.But as of a long time now I dont know HOW to enjoy things anymore.I spil myself with both pleasure and displeasure but the numbness is spreading like a cancer.How do I enjoy pleasure.How do I get that feeling?Is this feeling relevant anymore.Is the evolution of the mind to cast of emotions as false and live in knowledge alone and emotions not.I feel as I did ten years ago stading in the kitchen pondring life itself.Or is my pleasure niether the joy of pleasure or pain of displeasure but this greyness?
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Post by I AM the Way on Sept 20, 2006 13:43:01 GMT -6
hmmm... i don't know if understand your question.
are you not finding pleasure in the things you used to, or a reduced feeling of pleasure/enjoyment?
perhaps your tastes are changing?
there are many different variations of enjoyment. personally, i like working on Cult stuff because it feels like i'm achieving something and then i like reading HPL because it stimulates my artistic/aesthetic side and of course i like having sex because that is a physical pleasure.
so basically, i've just outlined the pleasure zones using our intellectual, emotional, and movement centers. think about the difference of these centers and what gives you joy in each category and why...
Venger Satanis High Priestwww.CultofCthulhu.net
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Post by ibiss on Sept 20, 2006 22:10:47 GMT -6
i'm ok now,periods of numbness come and go regularly I guess.I have an idea of why.Finding a permanent solution is my next task.I beleive that not actually becoming one in focus with the task may have something to do with it.A mechanical mindset can bring about nothing but another moment of sleep and depleted awareness.Perhaps this gets more interesting so I will ask a simple question.
Before doing certain things be it pleasureful,do you find it helpful to get into the same preparatory mindset (just as one enters a thoughtless contemplation before a magickal act) to therefore enhance pleasure?
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Post by I AM the Way on Sept 21, 2006 12:01:16 GMT -6
one can. however, i don't think it's necessary to enter such a mindset to fully enjoy pleasurable experiences. usually the enjoyment/pleasure is its own reward. what is the task that you're hoping to do or focus on?
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Post by ibiss on Sept 21, 2006 13:49:47 GMT -6
Painting.For some reason it isnt (how can I put this?) enjoyable anymore.Perhaps I simply realize I need to enhance my (limited) skills by taking a professional course on how to draw ,how to paint,etc.. I am having a very very enjoyable time however in my attempt in writing a story.This is fun
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Post by I AM the Way on Sept 21, 2006 15:13:00 GMT -6
ah, i see. i feel the same way sometimes about my artistic pursuits. a few weeks or months away from the painting might do the trick. or maybe you need to find a new direction? try something totally unlike what you've done before. that might cure your malaise.
even something i love, i don't want to do it all the time. painting or anything fun can turn into a job without the right perspective/attitude.
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