Post by K'zin Z'tari on May 26, 2012 12:17:11 GMT -6
Greetings to you all
Things have been good, the last few weeks, I have been able to do much good work and as I struggle, day from day, I feel the change, I am indeed different from what I was, I can feel much progress and I harvest from my work, there is much fruit.
Just today, I was waiting for the bus, it was late and I was getting frustrated, I had places to go and I started to curse the bus system, it is always like this when I have to get somewhere quick, the bus is late.
I tracked the route of the bus in my mind, I take this bus often, it leads me to where I go, every day and many times it has to wait at the crossing point as the other buses come there and there is often delay.
So I waited, but as time passed, I began to get restless and when it finally showed up, I could see that old bus driver driving and I was really pissed off, that lazy old fart, can he never be on time, this is impossible, I pay my money and this guy is always late, I should not have to take this.
But I did not say anything and stepped on and it went off and I started thinking, this guy is way to old to be driving buses, what if he makes a mistake and there is an accident, people could get hurt, children and so on and then he drives up to one station and opens the rear door and there is no one at the stop.
What the hell is going on, is he drunk or what, this can't go on, I will have to report this to the tops, he is dangerous, too old and this is not good, one day he will drive it off a cliff and kill every one.
But I was able to get hold of myself, I started thinking about how I am able to perform under different influences and suddenly I realized that it does not matter if he makes a little mistake, he is a good driver and always gets to the end and suddenly all my frustration was gone and I was calm and peaceful.
Yes, I used the technique I have developed over the years and I was able to calm myself, this I have learned doing the work and today I am much better at this, I completely turned my negativity into positive and I felt good, this I can do today, I who was so impatient and quick to anger.
Those who are experienced with the work can easily identify with this and to those who are new or have not gone through identification and other parts of the work, I say this, it can be done, you can with will power turn your negativity into positivity in an instant, it is not so hard when you get the hang of it, some people never get to this part, but they are not on the Fourth way and probably never will.
I enjoy life today, most days, I can get upset and depressed, but I am much more able to deal with it and as I walk around, I can feel tentacles spreading from my spine and I can feel everything around me and touch it.
It was always like that, I just never thought of tentacles, I realized many years ago, that I was able to feel my surroundings, that you all can do, you just have to get the proper feeling for it.
It is in a way like a radar, but believe me, it takes years of study and dedication to be able to work it all out and there are things that can sneak up on me.
Like this Succubus that has been hunting me lately, one night, I find myself in a trance like state, this dimension I enter, it is connected with the Astral plane, I can not explain it properly, but I like woke up and there is this beautiful woman in my bed and she was turning me on.
I realized instantly what was going on and I tell you, I did not want to wake up, she was awesome and all over me, but I knew I had to fight back and break out of this state.
For me it is easy, but others might not even realize what was going on, but I could get power into my body and I was able to wake up and drive it away.
Last night I woke up and there was something pinching my ass, I could feel it so well and some nights there is like the room is full of people, I have been told to do something to protect me from this, but I do not want to do that, something is trying to contact me and I want to get the proper meaning out of it.
I have no trouble driving a succubus away, but I am sure there is something more and I am gonna work on this and see what becomes of it.
When the stars are right
K'zin Z'tari
Seeker of S'ngac The Violet Colored Gas
Things have been good, the last few weeks, I have been able to do much good work and as I struggle, day from day, I feel the change, I am indeed different from what I was, I can feel much progress and I harvest from my work, there is much fruit.
Just today, I was waiting for the bus, it was late and I was getting frustrated, I had places to go and I started to curse the bus system, it is always like this when I have to get somewhere quick, the bus is late.
I tracked the route of the bus in my mind, I take this bus often, it leads me to where I go, every day and many times it has to wait at the crossing point as the other buses come there and there is often delay.
So I waited, but as time passed, I began to get restless and when it finally showed up, I could see that old bus driver driving and I was really pissed off, that lazy old fart, can he never be on time, this is impossible, I pay my money and this guy is always late, I should not have to take this.
But I did not say anything and stepped on and it went off and I started thinking, this guy is way to old to be driving buses, what if he makes a mistake and there is an accident, people could get hurt, children and so on and then he drives up to one station and opens the rear door and there is no one at the stop.
What the hell is going on, is he drunk or what, this can't go on, I will have to report this to the tops, he is dangerous, too old and this is not good, one day he will drive it off a cliff and kill every one.
But I was able to get hold of myself, I started thinking about how I am able to perform under different influences and suddenly I realized that it does not matter if he makes a little mistake, he is a good driver and always gets to the end and suddenly all my frustration was gone and I was calm and peaceful.
Yes, I used the technique I have developed over the years and I was able to calm myself, this I have learned doing the work and today I am much better at this, I completely turned my negativity into positive and I felt good, this I can do today, I who was so impatient and quick to anger.
Those who are experienced with the work can easily identify with this and to those who are new or have not gone through identification and other parts of the work, I say this, it can be done, you can with will power turn your negativity into positivity in an instant, it is not so hard when you get the hang of it, some people never get to this part, but they are not on the Fourth way and probably never will.
I enjoy life today, most days, I can get upset and depressed, but I am much more able to deal with it and as I walk around, I can feel tentacles spreading from my spine and I can feel everything around me and touch it.
It was always like that, I just never thought of tentacles, I realized many years ago, that I was able to feel my surroundings, that you all can do, you just have to get the proper feeling for it.
It is in a way like a radar, but believe me, it takes years of study and dedication to be able to work it all out and there are things that can sneak up on me.
Like this Succubus that has been hunting me lately, one night, I find myself in a trance like state, this dimension I enter, it is connected with the Astral plane, I can not explain it properly, but I like woke up and there is this beautiful woman in my bed and she was turning me on.
I realized instantly what was going on and I tell you, I did not want to wake up, she was awesome and all over me, but I knew I had to fight back and break out of this state.
For me it is easy, but others might not even realize what was going on, but I could get power into my body and I was able to wake up and drive it away.
Last night I woke up and there was something pinching my ass, I could feel it so well and some nights there is like the room is full of people, I have been told to do something to protect me from this, but I do not want to do that, something is trying to contact me and I want to get the proper meaning out of it.
I have no trouble driving a succubus away, but I am sure there is something more and I am gonna work on this and see what becomes of it.
When the stars are right
K'zin Z'tari
Seeker of S'ngac The Violet Colored Gas