Post by cakeshog on Feb 12, 2012 18:26:45 GMT -6
Hello guys im Doing better now ^^
but for something serious..
i have sine my Childhood or since im 5 weird nightmares the whole time the same dream...since 2 years i dont have it anymore but..yesterday i had it..ok nvm back to start
The dream is About...A Huge White room...i start counting then like..1,2,3,4,...5.6...100 but everytime i count... a box appears.."wooden crate"
and after 100 or thousand i have that feeling..like something is draining me taking my soul...my field of view get loooonger and waay bigger and im starting to get small...after that i get panic and start counting in haste...1000 1001 etc then a box falls and i fall back to 100 and i have this painful feeling like i getting drained by something....in the background i hear my father saying...: shhh its all okay.. "because everytime i dream that i start crying...isnt that weird?"
so after 3 years of that nightmare everynight i realized something is in the crates...
like , a power, or shadows... they watch me...
and everytime a box "crate" falls its like a punishment...
i dont know what that means...
ok back to yesterday..
i wasnt really dreaming..i just wanted to sleep because i was fucking sleepy
so....but then i had this feeling again..but so POWERFUL..i cant describe...like something went into my body...i also had in that moment that massive wide view and i was again like a gnome in a castle LOL
you know? like everthing is giant...
then i started to stand up and walk at 3 am into my room... and to the kitchen just sitting there doing nothing....
now the thing i had since Yesterday...such a panic in the dark. i cant describe how much i was afraid... like something was inside the darkness..
now i just can walk around the darkness without having any fears....
i dont know..
maybe it all wasnt a dream?
i still remember hearing my parents tried to calm me while i was crying when i was younger but for myself i still was in the dream..
maybe not a dream?
i need answers for this it starts to come back...atleast im not anymore afraid.."edit"
should i add that i now hear voices?? everynight?
trust me..i am not insane...i had depressions but i got them so dont tell me about that im insane
but for something serious..
i have sine my Childhood or since im 5 weird nightmares the whole time the same dream...since 2 years i dont have it anymore but..yesterday i had it..ok nvm back to start
The dream is About...A Huge White room...i start counting then like..1,2,3,4,...5.6...100 but everytime i count... a box appears.."wooden crate"
and after 100 or thousand i have that feeling..like something is draining me taking my soul...my field of view get loooonger and waay bigger and im starting to get small...after that i get panic and start counting in haste...1000 1001 etc then a box falls and i fall back to 100 and i have this painful feeling like i getting drained by something....in the background i hear my father saying...: shhh its all okay.. "because everytime i dream that i start crying...isnt that weird?"
so after 3 years of that nightmare everynight i realized something is in the crates...
like , a power, or shadows... they watch me...
and everytime a box "crate" falls its like a punishment...
i dont know what that means...
ok back to yesterday..
i wasnt really dreaming..i just wanted to sleep because i was fucking sleepy
so....but then i had this feeling again..but so POWERFUL..i cant describe...like something went into my body...i also had in that moment that massive wide view and i was again like a gnome in a castle LOL
you know? like everthing is giant...
then i started to stand up and walk at 3 am into my room... and to the kitchen just sitting there doing nothing....
now the thing i had since Yesterday...such a panic in the dark. i cant describe how much i was afraid... like something was inside the darkness..
now i just can walk around the darkness without having any fears....
i dont know..
maybe it all wasnt a dream?
i still remember hearing my parents tried to calm me while i was crying when i was younger but for myself i still was in the dream..
maybe not a dream?
i need answers for this it starts to come back...atleast im not anymore afraid.."edit"
should i add that i now hear voices?? everynight?
trust me..i am not insane...i had depressions but i got them so dont tell me about that im insane