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Post by Apsara Kamalli on Jul 27, 2011 4:31:54 GMT -6
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Post by talek on Oct 13, 2011 23:46:13 GMT -6
Excellent article. I too am starting to become aware of my actions during a negative situation, most of the time, I will be able to see "myself" after I had already reacted to the negative situation, but as I understand this, it is a begining. When I remember myself, I can act accordingly, and you are so right, it is a refreshing, lighter and brighter atmosphere, so I can validate your experience, which goes to that arguement, can we learn from each other at a distance, can we validate our experiences without being physically with each other, now I see it is, a yes.
I have also started experimenting with the Enneagram that Gurdjieff talks so much about, and the begining result, that I have learned is that I am emotionally driven, so much so it is very hard for me to observe the Emotional Center. I use my emotions as thoughts and vise versa, my thoughts can produce emotions with out me even thinking, and now I know how easily one can mix these two centers. I have a lot of work to do in this area.
I have noticied, now that I am begining to become aware of myself or the different centers, I don't have an excuse anymore for not working on myself. For me once I opened this door, there is no closing it, I think this is the reason I came back to the Cult, of course I tried to correspond with a local fourth way school, but they was having none of this, they wouldnot correspond back, so I could actually get a face to face, and Master Satanis says they donot go far enough anyway. The best quote I have seen on the fourth way is throw away the books, once a person has learned enough of the system and just self remember, self observe, this is the greatest teacher. again Excellent Article, I so hope you will keep posting your experiences, for I always pick up a valuable tool or a learning experience that I can apply to myself, and just like today a validation on our experience in self observation with the emotional center, excellent. Thanks.
Remember yourself, for the Emerald Kingdom is at hand!
Talek Esoteric Herald of the Old Gods Cult of Cthulhu!
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Post by I AM the Way on Oct 14, 2011 10:29:47 GMT -6
Let us know the results of your experiments with the Enneagram. Also, if you haven't used Kort'thalis in your magical work, then I suggest utilizing it asap.
Seeing yourself as a collection of centers is a great access point for self-observation and later, when one is ready, Self-Remembering. As you say, sometimes man thinks his emotions and feels his thoughts. It is important to separate the physical, the emotional, and the intellectual... taking each center by itself and watching how all of them leak energy. So much of our potential Will is wasted on inefficient use of actions, feelings, and thoughts.
That is an important Octave to complete. Exalt! Of course, Universe A will still try to stop you from Awakening. Keep making efforts daily, thrice daily whenever possible.
Awake!
Venger As'Nas Satanis Ipsissimus Cult of Cthulhu
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Post by talek on Oct 15, 2011 21:33:05 GMT -6
Thank you for your guidance Ipsissimus Satanis. This is going to be an eye opening experience and work. Starting out this program ask questions that go straight to the heart of my perceptions, it makes me look at me, and has me give the answers as to my core perceptions. I can already see how the world or the society that I have grown up in has given me my perceptions, my beliefs, this program is asking, no, not what you have been conditioned into percieving about yourself, but how do you as the person percieves your life. I get the feeling that this program is going to divide my false personality of who I think I am from the "real" me, which is going to be tough going, reminds me of the saying how many people really want to take a look inside of themselves, now I am starting to understand this.
Hail Cthulhu! The Great Work has just begun!
Talek Esoteric Herald of the Old Gods Cult of Cthulhu!
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