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Post by Deleted on Apr 20, 2011 9:14:43 GMT -6
For the whole month of July I will have the unique opportunity to be alone, wife away to her parent's home with the children. I love them but in spite of my efforts to explain her, she is so disturbed, unhinged by the CoC that with her I prefer to be discreet about my religion.
I intend to make good use of this time, not to wallow in debaucheries, but to Work as hard as possible and to ascent to a higher level.
I'm taking this very seriously. A door is opening... I'm on the threshold. This free month is coming exactly when I need it (as it was often the case... I'll open a tread about it) and I must NOT waste it.
I gathered all the necessary knowledge. Long ago, as a young adult, half-consciously I devoted myself to the task of understanding the universe. This was a life-long task: 25 years of researches among religions, traditions, esotery, philosophies, history, and my own experiments and reflexions! Sometimes I had doubts but I never gave up. Eventually I found, not every secrets of the universe but enough stuff for a complete picture.
The Cult of Cthulhu is for me the key, the Last Secret, the salutary shock, the completion, the map, the top of the pyramid.
And, literally by the way, I learned enough about me, too: I solemnly declare my task completed.
Now is time to put everything in order and to crystallize. Cthulhu is calling my name. The next octave is waiting me.
I began my preparation for my holy month of July 2011. I'm not in advance for a such important event. It will be an entire month of meditations, rituals, fast maybe. I will require help from Master Satanis, and I will greatly appreciate your comments and advices.
Remember yourself, for the emerald kingdom is at hand!
Yrreiht Wizard of the Terrible Darkness Cult of Cthulhu
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Post by I AM the Way on Apr 20, 2011 12:23:13 GMT -6
For the whole month of July I will have the unique opportunity to be alone, wife away to her parent's home with the children. I love them but in spite of my efforts to explain her, she is so disturbed, unhinged by the CoC that with her I prefer to be discreet about my religion.
I intend to make good use of this time, not to wallow in debaucheries, but to Work as hard as possible and to ascent to a higher level.
I'm taking this very seriously. A door is opening... I'm on the threshold. This free month is coming exactly when I need it (as it was often the case... I'll open a tread about it) and I must NOT waste it.
I gathered all the necessary knowledge. Long ago, as a young adult, half-consciously I devoted myself to the task of understanding the universe. This was a life-long task: 25 years of researches among religions, traditions, esotery, philosophies, history, and my own experiments and reflexions! Sometimes I had doubts but I never gave up. Eventually I found, not every secrets of the universe but enough stuff for a complete picture.
The Cult of Cthulhu is for me the key, the Last Secret, the salutary shock, the completion, the map, the top of the pyramid.
And, literally by the way, I learned enough about me, too: I solemnly declare my task completed.
Now is time to put everything in order and to crystallize. Cthulhu is calling my name. The next octave is waiting me.
I began my preparation for my holy month of July 2011. I'm not in advance for a such important event. It will be an entire month of meditations, rituals, fast maybe. I will require help from Master Satanis, and I will greatly appreciate your comments and advices.
Remember yourself, for the emerald kingdom is at hand!
Yrreiht Wizard of the Terrible Darkness Cult of Cthulhu That is excellent. I will gladly assist you, brother. Exalted!
More Cultists should be embarking upon a similar journey. Don't neglect the preparation a month or two before July. Get your house in order, so to speak.
Awake!
Venger As'Nas Satanis Ipsissimus Cult of Cthulhu
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Post by boksmutant on Apr 20, 2011 12:43:49 GMT -6
This will be great for you Yrreiht. I miss fasting & haven't gone more than 24 hours in months. 24 hours is cool, but I have an even better experience when I can pull of 48 hours. But that's difficult to do with a partner. In a relationship, "going somewhere to eat" is how you do things together, it's one of the more easily recognized commonalities between you "where do you wanna eat today, what should we have for dinner". For me to pull off a 24h fast, I'll at least have to lie once & say I already snacked, then just go to the restaurant & nibble on a single frie & sip water. Which works fine since you get to observe your self under the temptation of the food laid out right in front of you lol. That is one of the easier ways I'll use to maintain a heightened state.
But now that you'll have a month free, you'll be able to dive into whatever level you need. I just recently had 14 hours to just work out & meditate, felt awesome! First I meditated till I couldn't feel my body & did that for an hour. Then got up & did some stretching while trying to maintain that meditative state(which is difficult), but can be done to a lower extent & did that for another hour & a half. All this I did mostly in the silence of the room. Next was the best part, where I realized I hadn't worked out in a month & my body was almost demanding action, and since I felt like doing more of a purging of the bad than a building on the good(this time lol), so I blasted some 'Ministry-Bad Blood"(I think that's the name of it) & that song with those guitar riffs pretty much rips your soul out anyway lol, & started working out. Push ups, situps & sometimes just holding myself in a strained position, all the while focusing on the purging aspect. I did this back & forth till I ended it back in the silence & with meditation. Very liberating.
But it is nice to just take that time for your self. Keep us updated.
The God we worship is our future self.
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Post by Narlool L'Pah on Apr 22, 2011 4:49:57 GMT -6
Sounds awesome Master Wizard Yrreiht!
Perhaps I would suggest keeping a diary, and also writing about your discoveries/journeys?
AWAKE!
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Post by machiavelli on May 21, 2011 17:23:55 GMT -6
For the whole month of July I will have the unique opportunity to be alone, wife away to her parent's home with the children. I love them but in spite of my efforts to explain her, she is so disturbed, unhinged by the CoC that with her I prefer to be discreet about my religion.
I intend to make good use of this time, not to wallow in debaucheries, but to Work as hard as possible and to ascent to a higher level.
I'm taking this very seriously. A door is opening... I'm on the threshold. This free month is coming exactly when I need it (as it was often the case... I'll open a tread about it) and I must NOT waste it.
I gathered all the necessary knowledge. Long ago, as a young adult, half-consciously I devoted myself to the task of understanding the universe. This was a life-long task: 25 years of researches among religions, traditions, esotery, philosophies, history, and my own experiments and reflexions! Sometimes I had doubts but I never gave up. Eventually I found, not every secrets of the universe but enough stuff for a complete picture.
The Cult of Cthulhu is for me the key, the Last Secret, the salutary shock, the completion, the map, the top of the pyramid.
And, literally by the way, I learned enough about me, too: I solemnly declare my task completed.
Now is time to put everything in order and to crystallize. Cthulhu is calling my name. The next octave is waiting me.
I began my preparation for my holy month of July 2011. I'm not in advance for a such important event. It will be an entire month of meditations, rituals, fast maybe. I will require help from Master Satanis, and I will greatly appreciate your comments and advices.
Remember yourself, for the emerald kingdom is at hand!
Yrreiht Wizard of the Terrible Darkness Cult of Cthulhu Greetings, you are already at a higher level. The issue at hand is the perception that one carries with the perception. To achieve greater understanding, one must understand the whole of which equates to 0, and you which mathematically appears thus: You(i) << 0 Once perceptions and veils are lifted our true Godhead may be achieved in the material world. Enjoyed your post. Thank you for sharing.
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Post by dudetyson on May 21, 2011 23:25:53 GMT -6
Good luck Yrrheit.
Machiavelli, that was absolute genius, inspiring, moving.
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Post by machiavelli on May 22, 2011 2:01:59 GMT -6
Well thank you, my aim however is to climb the ranks here quickly.
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Post by deacon on May 28, 2011 14:04:01 GMT -6
It’s odd; I’ve felt the call more strongly as of late, as I’ve considered what is real, and what real is. This has certainly made me think. I thank you, and you have my best wishes in your endeavour Brother! Praise to the Ancients! Deacon
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Post by Deleted on Jun 27, 2011 3:34:11 GMT -6
Day one !
Why not use this forum as a diary ?
Amazing magical success last week ; Everything is in order... First serious meditation this evening.
Beginning well : strong will to change, intents are clear, I have faith in my gnosis.
Now is the moment of Awakening.
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Post by I AM the Way on Jun 27, 2011 13:28:39 GMT -6
Day one !
Why not use this forum as a diary ?
Amazing magical success last week ; Everything is in order... First serious meditation this evening.
Beginning well : strong will to change, intents are clear, I have faith in my gnosis.
Now is the moment of Awakening. Hopefully, our private discussion is helping. For everyone's information, Yrreiht decided to procure my services as a motivational life coach: www.cultofcthulhu.net/motivational-life-coaching/
While I do want to help every single Cultist who asks me for assistance, I can't devote large chunks of time and energy to everyone who could benefit from it. However, those who pay for sessions get nothing but my undivided attention... and results!
By His loathsome tentacles,
Venger As'Nas Satanis Ipsissimus Cult of Cthulhu
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Post by boksmutant on Jun 27, 2011 14:55:22 GMT -6
Totally!
I Had a good run at fasting last week, I'll talk about it latter. By the way Yrreiht, how did last years month go?
Awaken!
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Post by Deleted on Jul 1, 2011 3:52:04 GMT -6
Day 5
Progressing toward annihilating the personality, building a new self. I feel well ! Joyful. Having a clear goal, time to pursue it, and faith is a good condition.
I'm watching my home and everything inside, and I don't like. Who was the strange guy living here ? Let's put this in order now that I am here.
Last year ? I remember it was some 3 month after discovering Cthulhu Cult / LHP / magic / satanism / 4th way. My life & my self has changed (improved !) but I want more ! Enthusiasm has not weaken.
Awake.
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Post by I AM the Way on Jul 2, 2011 7:47:52 GMT -6
What was it about that initial experience with the Cult of Cthulhu that fired you up and gave you a passion for change? Go back to that origin. Visualize some of the very first imagery you encountered. Harness this energy and allow the creativity of your Conscious mind to expand it.
Making your Lovecraftian exploration seem as real as possible is crucial. Challenge your beliefs... challenge your reality. Go farther than you ever have before! Feel free to use bits and pieces from all over. What about incorporating Kort'thalis? Post your results here or privately to me so we can discuss them at length and build upon them.
Awake!
Venger As'Nas Satanis Ipsissimus Cult of Cthulhu
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Post by Deleted on Jul 5, 2011 14:49:09 GMT -6
What was it about that initial experience with the Cult of Cthulhu that fired you up and gave you a passion for change?
I was actively and sincerely, I mean without any prejudice, searching "The Truth", the explanation of the universe everywhere for 25 years, accumulating knowledge & experience, I assume it made me ripe to ear the Call of Cthulhu.
Lecture of "Cthulhu Cult" made me the effect of dynamite. __________________
9 days already !
Daily micromagic on myself is working fine, I'm successfully fighting some bad habits. Began to put my physical house in a new order. Considering a tattoo (it would be the first) of Cthulhu and/or Kort'thalis (even if it will infuriate my wife, ha ha ha) so that there is a visible change every time I look at my body.
From times to times, I analyze every of my gestures, stopping to move after each one. Then I analyze if this gesture is or not what a Master would do in this situation, and correct myself. A lot of correction to do ! I'm taking new habits.
I felt some fear 2 days ago. Fear of the dark, exactly like a child... Strange, maybe feeling of a presence? It's gone now.
In the same time I'm physically working on my house, I'm making a new bathroom. I do everything myself, lot of work but it's taking shape and will be awesome. I'm tired... I'll relax a little and make a super effort this weekend.
Remember yourself, for the emerald kingdom is at hand !
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Post by Deleted on Jul 16, 2011 14:36:32 GMT -6
Mid-course...
Success is already here, main objective is done. Since a while I was on a plateau I think, I'm indeed above now.
My habits have changed surprisingly fast, and in the intended way.
Now I will soon be in holidays, and still alone at home, the best part of my month is coming ! What to do with the remaining 3 weeks ? I continue of course, the Work is never finished !
Ho, you know, there is a funny side-effect : My taste has changed... That is unexpected. I used to eat very sweet, and now I don't like that any more ! So good for my health may be. Very, very strange if you knew me to learn that I did not eat chocolate nor even dessert since a week, and that's not a demonstration of will, I just don't want it...
Remember yourself, for the emerald kingdom is at hand.
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Post by sin on Jul 17, 2011 8:06:16 GMT -6
Could you pin-point the cause for the side-effect? What was it exactly that changed your taste for sweets?
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Post by Deleted on Jul 17, 2011 11:05:12 GMT -6
Could you pin-point the cause for the side-effect? What was it exactly that changed your taste for sweets? I meditated on this and found an explanation : I had a sad childhood and found comfort in sweets. This made my taste and probably a part of my false personality.
Now eventually I AM HAPPY to be (to become) my true self, and more important the change is really here, I feel I'm an other one, what happened in the past is irrelevant.
Awake.
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Post by sin on Jul 17, 2011 18:09:27 GMT -6
Interesting. Thanks for the elaboration.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 31, 2011 9:35:33 GMT -6
Well, I'm back from 4 weeks of holidays following my holy month. Sure the Work is never finished but it is time to assess the situation.
That's an impressive success and a new impulse, I was on a plateau since a while and I will progress again now. I'm not the same... I succeed. And I intent to do more.
From our conversation of yesterday :
My wife : - "You changed, Thierry (my "real" name), it's unbelievable how much you changed..."
Me : - "For the best isn't it ?"
Her : - "Yes ..."
Remember yourself, for the emerald kingdom is at hand !
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Post by I AM the Way on Aug 31, 2011 10:48:40 GMT -6
Well, I'm back from 4 weeks of holidays following my holy month. Sure the Work is never finished but it is time to assess the situation.
That's an impressive success and a new impulse, I was on a plateau since a while and I will progress again now. I'm not the same... I succeed. And I intent to do more.
From our conversation of yesterday :
My wife : - "You changed, Thierry (my "real" name), it's unbelievable how much you changed..."
Me : - "For the best isn't it ?"
Her : - "Yes ..."
Remember yourself, for the emerald kingdom is at hand ! That is awesome, brother. Exalt!
For those of you who are interested in such things...
www.cultofcthulhu.net/motivational-life-coaching/
Awake!
VS
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