Post by Deleted on Jan 18, 2011 8:39:37 GMT -6
Why didn't I shared this with you before ? Probably because since then I fell back deeply asleep.
It was on the eve of christmas, on the evening. All the preparations for dinner had been finished, the children playing with my wife. I sat, meditating and self-remembering for a few minutes, realizing how happy I was, that I have "everything" : although I cannot consider myself as rich, me & my family lack of nothing, we enjoy a good health, I have a job with a decent income, a beautiful wife and three healthy children...
But most of all, I have me and I have the void, it strucked me that it is the only important thing for I will always have all what I need if at least from time to time I am Awake.
Then, I focused on self-remembering and it happened. How to describe ? The word I will use is orgasm, but it was not physical at all, and yet different from a mental feeling, of triumph for instance.
It was me for good. It was a incredibly pleasant state of permanent self-remembering with no effort at all to be fully conscious of me and of my surrounding, so much that there was little difference between my body and the rest of the room : When I remember this moment I see me from outside.
What a supernatural mixture of happiness, self-remembering and consciousness. I stood up, walked around. I insist, the most spectacular was the obvious self-remembering, I was immersed in it with no effort at all, and fully master of my thoughts. One more thing : It was obvious, too, that reality was mine, that I could achieve what I want.
Indeed, this state of being is really as different as the second state is different from physical sleep ! Yeah for the first time I knew I was Awake !
As expected, it didn't last long, maybe three minutes. Another minute of intermediate state and I was back in my pitiful "normal" state.
Don't worry. Be happy. Make efforts.
It was on the eve of christmas, on the evening. All the preparations for dinner had been finished, the children playing with my wife. I sat, meditating and self-remembering for a few minutes, realizing how happy I was, that I have "everything" : although I cannot consider myself as rich, me & my family lack of nothing, we enjoy a good health, I have a job with a decent income, a beautiful wife and three healthy children...
But most of all, I have me and I have the void, it strucked me that it is the only important thing for I will always have all what I need if at least from time to time I am Awake.
Then, I focused on self-remembering and it happened. How to describe ? The word I will use is orgasm, but it was not physical at all, and yet different from a mental feeling, of triumph for instance.
It was me for good. It was a incredibly pleasant state of permanent self-remembering with no effort at all to be fully conscious of me and of my surrounding, so much that there was little difference between my body and the rest of the room : When I remember this moment I see me from outside.
What a supernatural mixture of happiness, self-remembering and consciousness. I stood up, walked around. I insist, the most spectacular was the obvious self-remembering, I was immersed in it with no effort at all, and fully master of my thoughts. One more thing : It was obvious, too, that reality was mine, that I could achieve what I want.
Indeed, this state of being is really as different as the second state is different from physical sleep ! Yeah for the first time I knew I was Awake !
As expected, it didn't last long, maybe three minutes. Another minute of intermediate state and I was back in my pitiful "normal" state.
Don't worry. Be happy. Make efforts.