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Post by boksmutant on Nov 6, 2010 9:46:47 GMT -6
I want this thread for people who are pushing them selves physically for a spiritual gain.
Could be your limiting eating to achieve a spiritual focus. Which is what Im doing.
Fasting.
Extreme running. (Something I used to do to focus my will).
Staring at the wall for extended periods!?lol
Chewing your food slower.lol
But definitely to gain Will. Focus. This would be an easy place for people to look when looking for physical ways to awaken!
For me, fasting is the way to go. The most Ive done is three days without food. Sure all the liquids you can handle, but no actual chewable stuff.
If your a smoker & would like to stop, fasting is one way to go. With out food, smoking becomes difficult. Smokers know what I mean. Food powers that urge, So not eating makes you cut down.
You actually cut down on a lot of things. But Ill say more later.
Awake!
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Post by boksmutant on Nov 9, 2010 9:18:35 GMT -6
On day two now. I ate three tortilla chips with carna on it yesterday. just couldn't take it lol.
Hunger level: 10% Should have prepared better with differing juices ready.
WILL: 5% All day I was thinking about the Fourth Way & Cthulhu.
These numbers could be a little higher I know. But I forgot to buy things I need, like fruit juice & almonds. Shit like that.
Awake!
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Frank
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Messenger Of The Outer Angels
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Post by Frank on Nov 9, 2010 15:19:36 GMT -6
I admire what you are doing Master, our spirits will be one with the Old God's once our mortal dependancies and bonds shatter, I will try to cleanse and focus my spirit as you are, thank you for your wisdom.
Hail Cthulhu
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Post by boksmutant on Nov 9, 2010 16:34:57 GMT -6
Just went to the store & got an apple, & wal nuts. This is all I hope to eat today. I realize Im not technically fasting anymore, which was my original goal. But why not take this somewhere just as good.
Thank you Frank. The body holds us to this shitty reality. Victims of its desires, victims of its compulsions. It must realize we are in control of it, not the other way around.
Ia Ia Cthulhu Fhtagn!
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Post by formallyknownasczhanjeem on Nov 10, 2010 21:40:38 GMT -6
I belive you may have a medical condition called anorexia fasting scientificaly dose not boost your focus it can actualy lead to death of brain cells and illusions, which are the opposite of focus. Ia ia Cthulhu
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Post by formallyknownasczhanjeem on Nov 10, 2010 21:43:30 GMT -6
without meaning insult you sound alot like a letter in a video game i once read it was a list of the things this man did, unfortunatly this man was insane. i am not calling you insane but this exeperiment might be (in my opinion you are intitled to con. your regiment as you see fit)
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Post by boksmutant on Nov 11, 2010 10:36:19 GMT -6
Forgive the video game way that I describe the situation. It helps me remember, as well as is a way of staying extra conscious during the event. I know its sorta compulsive but that's me.
I used to have a journal for years that I kept, & I would mark down how I felt every three hours of the day! lol. Not kidding. I would gauge myself on factors such as:
#1 Focus: How deliberate the movements of my body & thoughts were. #2 Power: Aura of Confidence. Fearlessness. Waiting for others to look away before I did.lol. Self respect. That kind a stuff. #3 Pain: Maintaining any level of physical pain. Strained breathing. Tightening of different muscles. Not breathing.lol Walking on my toes(to work the calves). A constant feel of pain no matter were it comes from. #4 Destiny: How in tune I was with my higher power(or God). How attentive I was to possible signs or revelation from other worldly beings. Basically watching for signs & looking for meaning in things.
But every three hours Id rate my self on a scale of 1 to 5 how well I maintained all four. 1 was shitty, 2 was average & 5 was spectacular. It would of course change from morning to evening. In the morning Id feel great & in the afternoon Id loose it all. But ya, pretty compulsive huh?
It was a time in my life when I was going through a lot of changes & wanted to make sure I had all the facts to look back on in the event something extraordinary happened. Im a scientist by nature & had to have my evolution recorded. That was years ago though. Haven't done it for a while.
As for fasting. Well I used to do it every month for years. So Im not afraid of any degenerating effects. I need to control my body. Its almost like another person all together for me. But no, dont be afraid. Ive done all this a million times & am very aware of my body & its limits.
The Cult is made up of some "unique" people. I just felt like advertising my brand of strange, to the bunch. Not much else.
I appreciate your critique, perhaps you have your own "strange" to add to mine.
Awake!
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Post by formallyknownasczhanjeem on Nov 11, 2010 12:08:45 GMT -6
I appreciate your critique, perhaps you have your own "strange" to add to mine.
[/quote] yes i do actualy, well i used to be in the church of satan and i was a nazi as well i also have conversations with myself like a split personalty and i have nightmares every night. hows that? haha! Awake!
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