Post by boksmutant on Nov 30, 2010 13:53:26 GMT -6
I remember diluting my self for years when I was a christian. Inventing Godly reasons why his children would be brought to this planet. "But it was Godly here before Adam fell" they say. Well why should I pay for Adams sins? I thought. What crime did I commit? Unless God had a problem with who we became after the fall. Either way, what did I do wrong to deserve this sentence?
I was told that I was on Gods side in the war in heaven. That I received a body for my loyalty.
Unlike Satan & his followers who would be cast to this earth never to receive a body.
Great, but here I was in this war zone that man created. Not a neutral or reasonable place to experience reality. Not a place for me to grow & experiment spiritually with my environment.
But a place of anarchy & fear! More like insecurity & fear.
What kind of fucking place is that to reward me with for my sterling service.
Well that's what started it. It struck me at a young age that perhaps the one third of the host of heaven that rebelled was in fact us! I watched & meditated about it for years. Always seeing how it fit so perfect. Looking at my pathetic race stealing & killing each other to survive. Like animals, or worse. It just had to be. And if so, then this was our prison.
So Ill go with that idea. Hell if you want to, you could say any level of consciousness we get to could be its own prison. A never ending progression to escape. Learn & escape.
Somewhere in the middle of that process you'll do some pretty amazing things in the universe though. Traveling about in other galaxies learning from other races, getting involved in the local drama, then realize its time to escape again, move on.
So once again its about enjoying the moment. Observe & record it. Learn what it holds & look beyond.
Awake!
I was told that I was on Gods side in the war in heaven. That I received a body for my loyalty.
Unlike Satan & his followers who would be cast to this earth never to receive a body.
Great, but here I was in this war zone that man created. Not a neutral or reasonable place to experience reality. Not a place for me to grow & experiment spiritually with my environment.
But a place of anarchy & fear! More like insecurity & fear.
What kind of fucking place is that to reward me with for my sterling service.
Well that's what started it. It struck me at a young age that perhaps the one third of the host of heaven that rebelled was in fact us! I watched & meditated about it for years. Always seeing how it fit so perfect. Looking at my pathetic race stealing & killing each other to survive. Like animals, or worse. It just had to be. And if so, then this was our prison.
So Ill go with that idea. Hell if you want to, you could say any level of consciousness we get to could be its own prison. A never ending progression to escape. Learn & escape.
Somewhere in the middle of that process you'll do some pretty amazing things in the universe though. Traveling about in other galaxies learning from other races, getting involved in the local drama, then realize its time to escape again, move on.
So once again its about enjoying the moment. Observe & record it. Learn what it holds & look beyond.
Awake!