Post by jmsn72 on Mar 11, 2009 22:10:56 GMT -6
Those who know me know I barely do elaborate rituals at home anymore due to cramped conditions.The mind I find is best for this.Standing there ,waiting,outside,there is no greater time to test visualizations and play with energy.This thread is more based on experiments,feel free to interject and give advice though.I'm going to post up what some may or may not call magic.They are sequences of visualizations and directing energy in attempt to see results and I will list what results I have seen.
Test 1-Detachment of Energy centre
Experiment started out with the visualization of just an empty field of whiteness.My energy or vitality was pictured as a black orb.This orb is enery but reserves detached from me only to be used when needed.Traveling to class and back does take alot of energy but rather than wasting that energy on unnecessary movement,gestures and thoughts,it may be stored in the visualization of the orb.The intent is to reserve energy and compress it for only when needed.
First experiences was a trance state right off the bat.Awareness of self and surroundings are actually heightened oddly but movements are slowed to a less laborious and energy draining pace yet meticulous and precise.Body is more numb than usual to stimuli. This visualization was held in place or frequently imagined.I had the feeling no one was noticing me or that I was invisible,this was indeed the case which is unusual since I always catch attention of unsavory thugs but did not today.Got to class and held it as well.
Visualization to reabsorb this energy was executed just for the hell of it.Visualized this black orb being shattered.The blackness dominates the white field and rather than being just an empty place,this is within my body centered around the navel.Took a few minutes to feel any energy since I went for 4 hours plus detached from it.The energy was an irritable energy and resulted in feeling of aggression with an heightened obsession with self survival.I theorize that this symbol of energy that was focused on as a detached mechanism earlier was reintegrated too swiftly.Doing this did have a reaction to people around me,people who ordinarily would not seem fearful or aware of me seemed alert to my presence.
What I did realize is before reintegrating this energy,time slowed.An example was standing on the train waiting for the door to open,when it did open,almost by reflex my foot stepped out of the door without a thought directed at doing so ,a much faster reaction this time than I got when thinking about leaving the train before rushing out in the past.Reflexes were really fast and there was an exaggerated detection of movement in my surroundings despite being in a trance.Inner dialogues seemed almost silent in voice and didn't mention anything irrelevant when it did speak;it mainly gave helpful suggestions.In fact the inner dialogue voice did not sound like my inner voice usually does.It was almost like being spoken to by the wind.Only downside was feeling like I was floating,kept losing track of my footing and walking.On the plus side much energy was saved and my knees did not hurt as they usually do due to what usually is a too brisk walking pace.
The change came after reintegrating the visual as stated above.Alertness was less intense as before and my mental state was more normal.Downside was I came off as hostile which was never the intent.
I think during the detachment phase,because I was holding the visualization,other faculties of the mind compensated with a heightened sense of awareness and reflexes became automatic,without even a thought.Due to the visualization perhaps my presence was treated as a black hole or emptiness;indirectly I was invisible in a manner of speaking.Perhaps because of the strain of the visual,the useless inner dialogue diminished and details such as faces and other usually insignificant details were easily dedicated to memory whereas usually they aren't.
This is the first experiment i did with an intent of storing or compressing my own energy.Usual experiments deal with what is called auric vamping or pushing my subtle energies into other people.Those almost certainly historically left me more unstable than usual if not drained.If possible,I will experiment more with sequences aimed specifically at my own energy rather than another person's.
I dunno if this is considered magic...Hope it is though.I like doing things when outside because I can more readily see whether it worked or failed.A ritualist needs to be able to do things on the move in a materialist world.I rather play on the move and experiment using my mind as the optimum ritualist space.
Test 1-Detachment of Energy centre
Experiment started out with the visualization of just an empty field of whiteness.My energy or vitality was pictured as a black orb.This orb is enery but reserves detached from me only to be used when needed.Traveling to class and back does take alot of energy but rather than wasting that energy on unnecessary movement,gestures and thoughts,it may be stored in the visualization of the orb.The intent is to reserve energy and compress it for only when needed.
First experiences was a trance state right off the bat.Awareness of self and surroundings are actually heightened oddly but movements are slowed to a less laborious and energy draining pace yet meticulous and precise.Body is more numb than usual to stimuli. This visualization was held in place or frequently imagined.I had the feeling no one was noticing me or that I was invisible,this was indeed the case which is unusual since I always catch attention of unsavory thugs but did not today.Got to class and held it as well.
Visualization to reabsorb this energy was executed just for the hell of it.Visualized this black orb being shattered.The blackness dominates the white field and rather than being just an empty place,this is within my body centered around the navel.Took a few minutes to feel any energy since I went for 4 hours plus detached from it.The energy was an irritable energy and resulted in feeling of aggression with an heightened obsession with self survival.I theorize that this symbol of energy that was focused on as a detached mechanism earlier was reintegrated too swiftly.Doing this did have a reaction to people around me,people who ordinarily would not seem fearful or aware of me seemed alert to my presence.
What I did realize is before reintegrating this energy,time slowed.An example was standing on the train waiting for the door to open,when it did open,almost by reflex my foot stepped out of the door without a thought directed at doing so ,a much faster reaction this time than I got when thinking about leaving the train before rushing out in the past.Reflexes were really fast and there was an exaggerated detection of movement in my surroundings despite being in a trance.Inner dialogues seemed almost silent in voice and didn't mention anything irrelevant when it did speak;it mainly gave helpful suggestions.In fact the inner dialogue voice did not sound like my inner voice usually does.It was almost like being spoken to by the wind.Only downside was feeling like I was floating,kept losing track of my footing and walking.On the plus side much energy was saved and my knees did not hurt as they usually do due to what usually is a too brisk walking pace.
The change came after reintegrating the visual as stated above.Alertness was less intense as before and my mental state was more normal.Downside was I came off as hostile which was never the intent.
I think during the detachment phase,because I was holding the visualization,other faculties of the mind compensated with a heightened sense of awareness and reflexes became automatic,without even a thought.Due to the visualization perhaps my presence was treated as a black hole or emptiness;indirectly I was invisible in a manner of speaking.Perhaps because of the strain of the visual,the useless inner dialogue diminished and details such as faces and other usually insignificant details were easily dedicated to memory whereas usually they aren't.
This is the first experiment i did with an intent of storing or compressing my own energy.Usual experiments deal with what is called auric vamping or pushing my subtle energies into other people.Those almost certainly historically left me more unstable than usual if not drained.If possible,I will experiment more with sequences aimed specifically at my own energy rather than another person's.
I dunno if this is considered magic...Hope it is though.I like doing things when outside because I can more readily see whether it worked or failed.A ritualist needs to be able to do things on the move in a materialist world.I rather play on the move and experiment using my mind as the optimum ritualist space.