Post by jmsn on Sept 7, 2008 21:29:20 GMT -6
It can be thought of sorcery in a way but at the same time not.Earlier today while drawing and whatnot...I had a feeling.I lloked around the room.I knew what was going to happen before it did because although the situation was new and unflolding before me,I been there and did that before.
Someone was going to walk into the basement.I would hear my father say something about leaving the house ,I'd drink some alcohol,mess up my ppicture and be god awfully miserable.I even knew who I would talk to about my f up!This was the reality I was in...I was there before ao it would unfold that way.
The knowledge did not come as images or thoughts.Just a knowing.Gnosis if you will.Art makes it easy to hit such states.I rejected such an outcome.Theres no way I'd fail.So instead of sitting and waiting I rejected that reality.I had something to eat which I did not in my scenario.Instead of alcohol I had applejuice.As I continued drawing...something felt different.I defied what was supposed to happen by doing something not in the scenario written out for me by forces I can't comprehend.
I can't describe the feeling but the outcome was entirely different.It's a feeling of being nowhere...in between worlds so to speak.Then theres like a knowing your in the reality you want...Its weird because I dunno if I can call something so intuitive magick.
For all you know I'm crazy and making this stuff up.Everyone I tell this to responds to me like"your crazy" but until you find yourself in the scenario or defying it,there probably wont be an appreciation of such things being real!
It kinda reminds me of something I read from Peter Carroll a few years ago.I never knew what the hell he was talking about until now.It's not the same as a retroactive enchantment or any of the other things he spoke about directly but the outcome is the same.Seeing a set of possibilities and selecting to exist in one.
I dunno how to consciously get into that state again but when it comes,I know if you run with it it becomes deja vu justified.If you defy it ,your better off.That is giving the assumption our universe selects the path of least resistance which leads in most cases to misery of some type.Hence why choosing to consciously do more than given in the scenario,it nullifies the scenario from happening.
I dunno if it makes sense,but I'll elaborate more later.
Someone was going to walk into the basement.I would hear my father say something about leaving the house ,I'd drink some alcohol,mess up my ppicture and be god awfully miserable.I even knew who I would talk to about my f up!This was the reality I was in...I was there before ao it would unfold that way.
The knowledge did not come as images or thoughts.Just a knowing.Gnosis if you will.Art makes it easy to hit such states.I rejected such an outcome.Theres no way I'd fail.So instead of sitting and waiting I rejected that reality.I had something to eat which I did not in my scenario.Instead of alcohol I had applejuice.As I continued drawing...something felt different.I defied what was supposed to happen by doing something not in the scenario written out for me by forces I can't comprehend.
I can't describe the feeling but the outcome was entirely different.It's a feeling of being nowhere...in between worlds so to speak.Then theres like a knowing your in the reality you want...Its weird because I dunno if I can call something so intuitive magick.
For all you know I'm crazy and making this stuff up.Everyone I tell this to responds to me like"your crazy" but until you find yourself in the scenario or defying it,there probably wont be an appreciation of such things being real!
It kinda reminds me of something I read from Peter Carroll a few years ago.I never knew what the hell he was talking about until now.It's not the same as a retroactive enchantment or any of the other things he spoke about directly but the outcome is the same.Seeing a set of possibilities and selecting to exist in one.
I dunno how to consciously get into that state again but when it comes,I know if you run with it it becomes deja vu justified.If you defy it ,your better off.That is giving the assumption our universe selects the path of least resistance which leads in most cases to misery of some type.Hence why choosing to consciously do more than given in the scenario,it nullifies the scenario from happening.
I dunno if it makes sense,but I'll elaborate more later.