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Post by kingshit on Nov 7, 2006 15:25:22 GMT -6
Who Are You?
this is a question that is the basis of all introductions on any path of knowledge within all realms. so ill start off eh,.
i am known online as Kingshit (thefucKingshit!). i am a hunter of knowledge who has writen a book on the muiltiverse and also a book of thoughts. i have been celibate for 5years during my prime as the energy contained within keeps my spirit in awe of others. i work as a barman for the pleasure of picking peoples heads as randomness always produces the intended variety i crave.
ive been doing warrior training with my people, we are Maori from New Zealand, though i grew up on Maroubra Beach in Sydney Australia. ive lead many lives and in each i was with the P.P.G.(pretty.popular.group). i feel old at 32, though, tomorrow ill wake up and be of no paticular age. i am scourageing through south east london at the moment with poverty on an scale thats tasty as life itself.
i look for students every now and then as much as i find teachers to learn from. when i first started learning i found it easier to learn from stupidity than by mistakes, in time i married them into a unit and the debris left in my wake is what is fasinating me at the moment.
this is an aspet of who i am.
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Post by jameson on Nov 8, 2006 21:59:02 GMT -6
Who am I, Where did I come from and Why am I here are the basis of awakening to some degree.
I am a black man, an outcast amongst my peers and amongst those of other groups yet as well a strange alien of no sex or race.I find resentment to having to participate in life as I would rather watch.Magician sometimes,mystic sometimes,nihilist sometimes,mundane sometimes,happy sometimes and depressed others without reason,artist sometimes and daydreamer always.Always watching the self and creating the world I will be amused in next.
When the layers are stripped down,I am the abyss incarnate.Nothingness wearing a mask hidden amongst my own dream of man ,beast, plant and other.An experiment of my own working.I am everywhere as everyone while choosing to view life through this vessel if only for my dark amusement.What I will be next I know not.I am he who hath lost the silver key which lies within me.I am he who moves through the gate yet is the gate and guards the gate at the same time.
What illusion existed before this one I am beginning to see.Something other than human was the past life I lived
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Post by devoutbeliever666 on Nov 9, 2006 16:00:50 GMT -6
My name and my age is all i know. Beyond that I know nothing of who or what I am. I have a strong attraction to H.P. Lovecrafts so called "fiction" but I dont Know why.
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Post by thehereticsaint13 on Nov 11, 2006 16:58:50 GMT -6
Who am I?
I am The Heretic sometimes, also known as XIII, or as The Stumblecat.
My luck runs strange...I'll never have the luck that normal people have in life...hell...I've never even won a free pop...
And yet as many times as I've should have died...well hell, I'm still breathing.
I'm not sure of Cthulhu, but I am a professor and practitioner of The Cold. What is The Cold? This "Cold" is having the ability to essentially be human...but all the pain, hate, fear, sorrow, you collect them, creating this monster this is more sinister, more honest, and even more reliable than any human. I know many here express the H.P. Lovecraft mythos and the transformation from a man to a god...The Cold gives you power, it gives you strength, and control. You must still be able to feel, without giving in to any of the emotions, and never fully giving into the monster...then...the possibilities are endless...
This is what I have found, and what I am. I am The Cold, and I see the world through the eyes of both The Monster and The Man. The result is quite frightening...
All I know is this Cold has created me a monster *laughing* Though I do prefer it over being a man.
What say ye to this, eh High Priest?
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Post by I AM the Way on Nov 12, 2006 11:03:25 GMT -6
interesting. The Cold is similar to what the Cult of Cthulhu tries to achieve - a man/Old One hybrid. where did your understanding come from?
Venger Satanis Cult of Cthulhu High Priestwww.CultofCthulhu.net
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Post by thehereticsaint13 on Nov 12, 2006 14:06:34 GMT -6
The understanding has come from the need to understand in itself. I love looking upon the world, with so many people scurrying around everyday, racing off to their own deaths of their own device. But you have to swallow certain emotions, reactions, basically like holding back your humanity, to get a better, broader, a more objective look upon this odd existence we all traverse. I want to know "why", all too much I think sometimes. This "why" however is a tricky inquiry, for you need to know which "why" to ask. Case in point, I have a friend who was a "born again" (yeah, I know, it's so sad), and was trying to achieve the ideal christian lifestyle. He had a sign on the wall that said, "Why do you live the way you do?", as if to spark his mind on why he WASN'T a "model" christian. I looked at the sign, kinda laughed, and wrote out my own challenge to his question. "You live the way you do because you choose how to live. Why do you choose the way you do?" And it was funny, because he just didn't "get it", he though that both questions were one and the same. It's our choices that determine our lives, not our lives that determine our choices. But it's being able to know that distinction that makes all the difference. When you can look at the world through The Eyes of The Cold, you will start to understand which "why" to ask and be able to ask these questions without fear. The Cold also allows you to be able to have the strength to hear, know, and except the truth if/when it comes. Finally, The Cold also gives you the clear, open mind to know how to use your knowledge wisely.
It's harsh, unfeeling, inhuman, sometimes even painful, but it also has the potential to be extremely peaceful. If you are truly "cold", if you are one with man and monster, the ability to control your humanity is your most valuble asset. You can take all the pain, hate, misery, all the sorrow, and hold it deep within, frozen, cold, just laying in wait for the time when you need it most. The same can be done with the happiness in your life too, solace in a box, so to speak. *LOL* Being able to call upon emotions when you need them most, being able to hold them back without them eating you from the inside out, and having the ability to know when the time to call/quell these emotions is the KEY to The Cold. This is where the power lies. It may not seem like much at first...but the power that arises is quite intriguing.
"The Cold" brings you much power, but if you can control it. Much like your man/Old One hybrid, and much like the Hybrid, the power therin can destroy you very quickly and violently if you waver even the slightest. And like the Hybrid, as I can imagine, "The Cold" is very wild, and willful, and basically just wants to go off and do whatever the fuck it wants. That's the monster in you trying to break loose, and it's very hard not to give in. I like your reference to the man/Old One as a Hybrid, because the man/monster of The Cold is quite the same. Two distinct and powerful entities, that fuse together to become something more than a man, something more than a monster. I figure the man/Old One is the same, something more than a man for sure, but something much more than a God. Hell *LOL* maybe I have been called, who knows...so far it seems we have like minds.
In 25 years, through all the pain, happiness, and violence, this is what I have come to understand of this odd existence. Anymore questions?
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Post by setnacht on Nov 15, 2006 5:19:04 GMT -6
"Man has to come to an end", Nietzsche said. For this reason, i can't tell who i am, except one who destroys himself everyday anew in order to recreate his self anew.
Setnacht
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Post by happy on Jun 9, 2007 9:10:22 GMT -6
Name is Happy, also under the title Ritual Whore. I play with all manner of dangerous things.
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Post by laughingdead on Jun 10, 2007 17:13:22 GMT -6
I have been many things in my life finding myself but now that I have found who I am I am nothing but a void without substance in a universe of infinites... I find that when I empty myself of the question there really are no questions and I begin to learn and know all I need to know... I think this may have hindered my progression but then I feel no modivation to progress in a world thats about to be destroyed... I thirst for something other than what this world has to offer and I feel that the time is near for that thirst to be quenched... I feel a growing hatred towards groups of men in this world and wish to see thier blood fill the streets and thier bowels rain from the heavens... I feel saddened that the ones I truly love would be fearful of this desire but I know I need not be the instrument of thier demise for thier fate is sealed... I know that I have a purpose in the wake of the death of this earth and that I will live through it but I dont know yet for what purpose... maybe that is the longing I feel is the end of this sickening putrid lie that we call society... But then again right now my words are modivated by a deep and growing hatred at the moment so in time this whole reality I just created will be an illusion... And I will no longer feel the need to see the death and destruction I desire now...
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Post by luxcthonis on Aug 15, 2007 18:28:50 GMT -6
While reading your respective posts I wondered who i was. I came to a conclusion: you are all what I am. We are each other. All in one, dwelling in Cthulhu consciousness. Cryptic? yes. Apt? yes... Lvx, -M.
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