Post by eldritchentity on Dec 23, 2015 8:28:23 GMT -6
I am completely amazed how much change there has been within myself over the past few years. The good news is I come to realize that there is a difference between being aware of yourself through the changes or you can be changed by outside circumstances and forget who you are then later on you identified with what changed. So unfortunately I have gotten lost so many times, and just continued to dig in each ideological thought, theories, certain systematic approaches concerning magic and then trying to find a place to belong, like having an identity issue. This identity issue I speak of is more like being ungrounded, or no ego type of thing because of low self esteem.
So what I have learned though, on taking any road or the 4th way. Is that every person must go alone as a personal path. To become part of something greater than yourself in terms of being a group of individuals, a society for an example, it is better to be an outcast because of your self awareness than to remain in a prison-remaining group of people, here is the mistake I made when I delved in the Nazism from the ONA. I quickly realized how many people out there will jump into something just to belong so they do not feel alone. Experience taught me that true individuality you must be brave to go alone, it takes courage and strength, fear is a tool of the enemy that keeps us locked in this prison. So I can easily put a method, a path that achieves this type of liberation. For an example using Buddhism, these paths is about being in the world and not of it. Being free. The Buddhist who has a simple life, for an example like eating only certain foods, wearing the same clothing and meditating has a purpose towards enlightenment. And I am not talking about the "new age" information about Buddhism either. My point is there is symbolism in the practices, because so many people are trapped to their desires "I am hungry I want a piece of cake" for an example is you keep repeating the same mistake this is the way a lot of people go, but if you master yourself, with a certain diet and meditate you become an outcast, you go on path to individuality. This isnt about simply denial. There is another way, is through Indulgence which here one probably would identity Satanism. Using your sexuality for an example for Self Remembering. It is a tool as well. But I stick with what makes most sense to me. Is the Left Hand path enlightenment because as long as my feet are walking on earth, I will encounter those who would try deter me from awakening. I would need a raw type of force to fight back. Feeding on insecurities and fears. Using either Satanism or Buddhism to achieve spiritual liberaton can also be put under the category of Chaos as in Chaos Magic. Because what is outside of the order of the imprisoning universe? Chaos. Outcast, liberated. The things that are not dead but dreaming are here.
So there are many different ways one can go. I have made a lot of mistakes for sure. For an example I use to be indecisive about what my religion was, which group I wanted to belong too, so I used a belief of Nazism to find where I would belong. I dont want to be part of an organism, like a unit with other people who can not have their individual path. The only way I would ever consider is if it was understood in sense of a unity of multiple "I's" becoming together as one. Perhaps Nazism can be turned inwards rather than outwards? I dont know. When I became aware of all of this, I realized "oh..." is all I said.
The common element of belief in all of this, is I come to see this nature of mine being nihilistic view subconsciously speaking, but in a very negative non-enlightening way. So that has pretty much changed to what I been experiencing as of late.
So what is everyone's take on Nihilism and the 4th way? How do these two together make sense?
So what I have learned though, on taking any road or the 4th way. Is that every person must go alone as a personal path. To become part of something greater than yourself in terms of being a group of individuals, a society for an example, it is better to be an outcast because of your self awareness than to remain in a prison-remaining group of people, here is the mistake I made when I delved in the Nazism from the ONA. I quickly realized how many people out there will jump into something just to belong so they do not feel alone. Experience taught me that true individuality you must be brave to go alone, it takes courage and strength, fear is a tool of the enemy that keeps us locked in this prison. So I can easily put a method, a path that achieves this type of liberation. For an example using Buddhism, these paths is about being in the world and not of it. Being free. The Buddhist who has a simple life, for an example like eating only certain foods, wearing the same clothing and meditating has a purpose towards enlightenment. And I am not talking about the "new age" information about Buddhism either. My point is there is symbolism in the practices, because so many people are trapped to their desires "I am hungry I want a piece of cake" for an example is you keep repeating the same mistake this is the way a lot of people go, but if you master yourself, with a certain diet and meditate you become an outcast, you go on path to individuality. This isnt about simply denial. There is another way, is through Indulgence which here one probably would identity Satanism. Using your sexuality for an example for Self Remembering. It is a tool as well. But I stick with what makes most sense to me. Is the Left Hand path enlightenment because as long as my feet are walking on earth, I will encounter those who would try deter me from awakening. I would need a raw type of force to fight back. Feeding on insecurities and fears. Using either Satanism or Buddhism to achieve spiritual liberaton can also be put under the category of Chaos as in Chaos Magic. Because what is outside of the order of the imprisoning universe? Chaos. Outcast, liberated. The things that are not dead but dreaming are here.
So there are many different ways one can go. I have made a lot of mistakes for sure. For an example I use to be indecisive about what my religion was, which group I wanted to belong too, so I used a belief of Nazism to find where I would belong. I dont want to be part of an organism, like a unit with other people who can not have their individual path. The only way I would ever consider is if it was understood in sense of a unity of multiple "I's" becoming together as one. Perhaps Nazism can be turned inwards rather than outwards? I dont know. When I became aware of all of this, I realized "oh..." is all I said.
The common element of belief in all of this, is I come to see this nature of mine being nihilistic view subconsciously speaking, but in a very negative non-enlightening way. So that has pretty much changed to what I been experiencing as of late.
So what is everyone's take on Nihilism and the 4th way? How do these two together make sense?